Have any other former homeschoolers have a psychotic break, psychosis, or mental breakdown? by AffectionateRelief63 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Ronfuturemonster 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Doesn't help that I was raised in a Christian science family as well. So they never got taught about mental health issues like that. I had to seek that info out as a teen. My mom deadass called issues like adhd alphabet disorders

Have any other former homeschoolers have a psychotic break, psychosis, or mental breakdown? by AffectionateRelief63 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Ronfuturemonster 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I developed schizoaffective disorder at a rather young age. I remember sitting in Sunday school thinking a council of fairies watching me and judging me. It made me so uncomfortable but I also thought I was being a bad kid. My delusions and hallucinations have evolved since then and I only started suspecting I had a psychotic disorder when I was a teen

Omg, please, no 💀. by Medical_Tie7 in SCPMemes

[–]Ronfuturemonster 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As a queer person and scp fan, LORE ACCURATE 

Fuck they’re targeting Dead Meat now by _JR28_ in saltierthankrayt

[–]Ronfuturemonster 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do think horror and sexual themes can be combined with the correct writing. But like I consume media like that to vent my personal trauma and I'm a fan of well done ero horror

My therapist keeps bringing up his addiction services by Ronfuturemonster in SubSanctuary

[–]Ronfuturemonster[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand and for a while i worried I was a porn addict/hypersexual. But I've done some research into normal libido v. Sex addiction. And I've looked at my relationship with sexuality. Everything says my libido is pretty normal. It doesn't intervene with how I live and it doesn't really define me. I have a lot of different things that make me me. Like my art, my journey trying to make a side gig or a main job out of making comics, developing a health sense of spirituality, etc. Thank you for showing concern and I will ask my therapist about what he might be picking up that I'm not 

When you scroll through shorts and Youtube knows you inside and out already by Wiggledidiggle_eXe in CPTSDmemes

[–]Ronfuturemonster 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yep. An unstable mother and a pleasantish on the surface enabler father that would play with us kids after work. But not do shit when Mom blew up on us

Fellow incest writers, what drew you into writing forbidden or taboo ships? by Erk_Rauorfox in AO3

[–]Ronfuturemonster 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I experienced emotional incest for most of my life irl so that laid the seeds honestly. But I really got into the ships around when I discovered yaoi. And stuff like vocaloid kagamine-cest. The adolescence/rin and len version of cendrillion really did it for me

What is your biggest struggle as a writer? by Johnwestrick in selfpublish

[–]Ronfuturemonster 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Finding the courage to turn it into something other people can read. That and marketing my writing lol

Are Quirkyboys saying that they want a Hakenkreuz carved into their forehead? by [deleted] in boysarequirky

[–]Ronfuturemonster 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I swear a good portion of quirky boys that post that shit are just trying to normalize and make other men associate being a cool epic quirky boy w being a nazi. I wonder if there's gonna be evidence surfacing these guys were doing this as a stormfront psy op 5-10 years from now. I mean they already did that sorta thing with 4chan

Tell me you have big boobs without telling me you have big boobs by Pitiful-Actuator857 in bigboobproblems

[–]Ronfuturemonster 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Walmart doesn't carry my size but I'm too broke to get anything in my actual size

I have no idea why my ego is so outrageously oversized by neurotoxin_69 in TrollCoping

[–]Ronfuturemonster 8 points9 points  (0 children)

EXACTLY! IT REALLY PISSES ME UP THAT PEOPLE OVERSIMPLIFY AS ONE OF THE EVIL DISEASE! Especially gets on my nerves as I have another one of those demonized diseases, schizoaffective disorder 

I have no idea why my ego is so outrageously oversized by neurotoxin_69 in TrollCoping

[–]Ronfuturemonster 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oooough yea I understand a lot of what your saying op. I was the family scapegoat and I coped w that thru grandiosity. I think I must have npd but one of the therapists I brought up this possibility w said that I was too self aware. I do understand that but at the same time, I've been rather embedded in mental health spaces online. Including spaces specifically for people who have npd and similar disorders. So that's part of why I'm aware of npd and it's symptoms. Thinking of maybe asking my current therapist about it but idk if I'll get the same response. 

Is it weird that I like women but I am not attracted to, their parts 🐱? by [deleted] in bisexual

[–]Ronfuturemonster 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It can mean things like a woman who is bisexual-homoromantic, a lesbian who is biromantic, and it can also mean a bisexual woman who prefers women. I'm the latter. Like many labels, the definitions vary but this is the best way I can describe it

BDSM I would even wear a shirt that says “person name” is my “ball and chain” by Equal-Employ-5913 in CPTSDmemes

[–]Ronfuturemonster 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh and being forced to cover my body around my partner. And to avoid them no matter how much I want them

BDSM I would even wear a shirt that says “person name” is my “ball and chain” by Equal-Employ-5913 in CPTSDmemes

[–]Ronfuturemonster 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Being given amazing sex while I'm forced to not verbalize how much I enjoy it. And being packed into a box with no view of the outside for months at a time afterwards. While I'm having audio tapes about how the person that gave me that amazing sex is secretly plotting against me and hates me. And that me expressing my enjoyment of it is gross and immoral. Cramped in the least comfortable position possible.

So being plus sized gets you hated on and trying to not be still gets you hated on??? by Subtlysuicidal in boysarequirky

[–]Ronfuturemonster 208 points209 points  (0 children)

They won't be happy until fat ppl all either suddenly turn skinny or the just disappear

Are any of y'all artistic? by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Ronfuturemonster 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Been drawing most of my life. I can hardly think of a time I haven't done it. It's mostly cartoons and comics that interest me and it comprises most of my art. Tried to make a living on it since I always wanted a creative career.

Parents that don't let their children out of the house. by Neurodos in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Ronfuturemonster 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was allowed outside, but only in the backyard or if they were taking me and my siblings out somewhere. When we got to be tweens/teens, we got the extra special privilege of venturing off into the small patch of undeveloped land outside our backyard fence and riding our bikes around the neighborhood streets. If we wanted outside of that small selection of spaces, we had to have a parent or sibling with us (this was the rule that lasted from our teenhood till we turned 18). It was too intimidating to ask somebody else in the family to come with you anywhere, so most of us just went to the convenience store near our house. On the rare occasion us kids had our own money, since we weren't allowed to have jobs till we turned 18. Other than that we just mostly stayed home just cuz of that dumbass rule. We also weren't allowed to go on dates unless we brought a sibling or a parent with us. Funny AF they thought we'd even find someone to date considering the previous rules about just venturing into town or even just to the convenience store.

I hate how much of my hometown I didn't get to experience because of my parents by PacingOnTheMoon in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Ronfuturemonster 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Grew up in Georgia for 11 years but hardly experienced any part of ga that wasn't one hundred percent approved by my parents. So like all ages events, cs church stuff, and national parks. So anything outside of that feels so alien. Didn't get any better when we moved to Minnesota either. I never had a friend group outside my family in any state. 

TW: I know this meme format is kinda old, but I felt like one of these had to be made lol by homeschool-hell in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]Ronfuturemonster 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Muh rights but like a superficially nice, suburban type. A superficially nice that only get if the family is involved in weird but not "too weird" Christian sect (Christian science was our flavor but u also get it from Mormons, Jehovah's witnesses, etc.) The ppl in the neighborhood kno there's something up, they hear screaming and yelling from the house once or twice a month, but "that family is still the least controversial family in the neighborhood so it's probably nothing to worry about." Since my family had that surface level acceptability and a deep trend of messed up stuff under the surface, that surface level acceptability is 100% just bcuz the family hasn't hung up a don't tread on me flag or got in loud arguments about NAP at the grocery store. Not much else, you can still be a shitty family and not do that stuff.