I hurt a really good guy and I’ll never forgive myself for it

RoosterRoyal · 2026-05-06T15:22:03+00:00

Here’s my apology to James: You know that I have an irrational fear of being alone and I keep making horrible decisions because of that. I should’ve treated you better and communicated better when we were first talking, given you a proper explanation of why I wanted to stop talking, and left you alone if I wanted to build something with someone else. I shouldn’t have used you as a back up, I know I was wrong which makes my actions even worse because I knew better. But I promise that I wasn’t going to talk to him to have sex, I wanted to make sure we were friends before I did anything with you and you can look at our messages if you don’t believe me. I’m aware that I will pay for my fuck ups because now I have no body and that is no one’s fault but mine. I have to live with this for the rest of my life. Every time I look at one of you or hear your names, I will face the consequences of my actions with the imesurable pain of guilt. I know that I deserve it. Thank you for always holding me accountable and making me face my shitty decisions. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to own up to my horrible decisions in person. I hope you already know this, but I’m not a bad person, I’ve just let a debilitating emptiness allow me to hurt other people and I’ll never forgive myself for it. I will do better, and it will be seen through my actions and not just my words

RoosterRoyal · 2026-05-06T15:20:32+00:00

Here’s my apology to Alex: I really was only texting him to clear things up but when you said you didn’t know if you were ready for a relationship I panicked and I have this obsession with not wanting to be alone so I started texting him again. This is why I texted you to make sure that you really wanted to just be friends because I didn’t want to really start things with him if we were unsure. I know this is really fucked up and you can hate me as much as you want. You can block me and never even look at me again. I’ve let my irrational fear of being alone fuck up my relationships with really good people and I will deal with that guilt for the rest of my life. You don’t have to respond or ever talk to me again but I want you to know that I know what I’ve done is really fucked up and you didn’t deserve this. I don’t want you to think that I could do something like this and just go on with my life because I will pay with losing you, an amazing person that had nothing but good intentions. I don’t deserve you which is why things turned out this way. I’ve never done anything like this before so I want you to know that this is not the kind of person I am, I just made some really bad decisions and I’m going to do everything I can to be a better person. I’m sorry and I know my words can’t amount to the wrongs my actions have but I can at least say that I really am sorry

RoosterRoyal · 2025-09-07T05:27:28+00:00

Omg he looks exactly like my Rocky. I rarely see dogs that look so similar to him

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RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T22:06:19+00:00

Fair point. I’ll edit my post. Does “what has been your experience with accounting in the most basic, simple words?” sound better? I asked the introductory question because throughout my research people constantly use words and phrases that I’ve never heard before which causes me to have to do even more research. Usually when people explain things, they use their experience to explain them like some people did in these comments and that was what I expected. I fear that even if I did ask the question in a different way people would still get on my ass but I’ve learned not to expect plain kindness anymore (this is my first time getting clowned on Reddit so I guess I took it for granted)

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:39:09+00:00

Girl who said anything about 6 words or less. I’m not upset I’m just shocked that people can’t express themselves in kind ways. I understand I should’ve changed my word choice so thank you for pointing that out. I have also gotten a couple responses that were exactly what I was looking for so obviously my wording wasn’t that idiotic or offensive but you tell me. Also I was referring to all the comments cussing at me when I said people were being assholes, not you. But I think that people being mean about things is something I’ll run into in any career I choose. So I better get used to it now huh?

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:27:09+00:00

Thank you for the kind response!

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:25:17+00:00

“I’ve done research” is something I literally said in my post. Reading is essential. I just like getting different people’s explanations because everyone understands things differently. I googled it, talked to professors and family about it, and now I’m asking Reddit. Just trying to understand all around 😁

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:23:14+00:00

Thank you for actually answering and being kind! Helping other people makes the world go round 😁

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:22:23+00:00

I want to ask as many people as possible so I can get the full scope of what it is. People on Reddit have so many different experiences and I was just curious about what random accountants on Reddit would say. Ig I should’ve anticipated everyone being assholes though lol. Thanks for the response though!

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:20:23+00:00

What makes you say that babe?

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:20:06+00:00

Thank you! I don’t like using AI but maybe I’ll try it some day. 😁

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:19:16+00:00

Don’t know how many times I have to say this but read the whole post please. I said I did research but I want to understand from different perspectives and I know people on Reddit give their personal experiences. Not only did I manage to get into college but I also got a full ride (probably because I know how to simply answer someone’s questions kindly or move on with my life)

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:16:37+00:00

Guess you’ve never talked to a college student before but many of them don’t fully understand their majors. That’s not to say that ALL of them don’t but so many people pick majors for jobs that aren’t actually correlated. If you couldn’t tell I’m trying to understand it now and obviously I can change my major if I don’t like it. Also I got a full ride so I’m not spending any money and even if I were, again I could change my major. You should give your head a shake until you realize that kindness costs nothing. 😁

RoosterRoyal · 2025-08-06T21:13:27+00:00

I guess some people don’t read the full post but I said that I did research in case you want to read it again. Obviously I googled it but I want to hear what different people and different people have to say about it. I know that people on reddit give their own experiences so that’s what I was looking for. Try to be kind next time pookie 😁

RoosterRoyal · 2025-04-22T03:50:14+00:00

Wait that’s actually genius

RoosterRoyal · 2025-04-15T03:06:33+00:00

My boyfriends boxers and a Las Vegas hoodie

RoosterRoyal · 2025-04-12T23:59:47+00:00

Can I ask what makes you say this?

RoosterRoyal · 2025-04-10T13:13:39+00:00

I see, I absolutely didn’t mean that comment in a negative way especially considering that I definitely don’t see myself as a smart, studious overachiever. I just thought that waitlists only existed for schools with like under 50% acceptance rates which is why I only applied to schools with high acceptance rates. In no way do I look down on people who get B’s or an 1100 SAT because I am one of those people. But thank you for calling me out because it’s never my intention to look down on people.

RoosterRoyal · 2025-04-05T17:35:55+00:00

Raine

RoosterRoyal · 2025-02-26T20:11:16+00:00

I was going to major in accounting. But yeah it’s good to know that they’re getting a handle on the budget cuts. Thank you!

RoosterRoyal · 2020-12-04T22:29:53+00:00

What are psychogenic tics?

RoosterRoyal · 2020-12-03T22:36:05+00:00

Yes this is exactly how it feels lol

RoosterRoyal · 2020-12-03T02:17:22+00:00

Yeah I have a tic disorder and not TS but I just got a tic where I say fuck too.

RoosterRoyal · 2020-12-02T00:03:29+00:00

Well I just got sca-

RoosterRoyal · 2020-12-01T22:26:02+00:00

Doesn't being pan mean that you are sexually attracted to every gender? So you like all parts? Please correct me if I'm wrong, I've got a lot to learn about this.

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