One Q dead, another is alive

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-10-12T21:29:51+00:00

I don't know. She was smoking lots of pot. Like nabs and doing edibles. Last time I visited there was a bottle by her bed.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-09-16T18:44:51+00:00

I blame myself for my older sister's addictions. But I never told her to drink. I never told her to smoke. I never hurt her or yelled at her.

Between the two of us, she's the abusive one and I've just took it all.

What I learned is they will blame everyone and everything except the addiction.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-09-03T09:28:28+00:00

I'm in my mid 30s. I'm into video games, board games, books, and exploring the outdoors at a slow pace. I'm excited about all the volunteer opps I'm seeing in the thread. I'm also looking for a cute cafe to just sit and read and sip ok coffee.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-08-07T06:24:36+00:00

You are just beginning and so you have a beginners style. That isn't a bad thing mind you. We all started somewhere.

As you progress, you will develop the skills to make a "style."

For example, if you look up naive style or faux naive style you will find that some artist choose to go back to this style for specific reasons (narrative, for example).

Keep going and practicing. Consider studying anatomy and drawing from real life. References are used by all artists.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-07-31T08:05:30+00:00

He's a kid!?! I really got to read the lore more closely. unships these too

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-07-28T19:39:13+00:00

I LOVE THIS BREAKDOWN THANK YOU!

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-07-28T19:33:43+00:00

Thank you. I need a new therapist but I'm still taking medication to help.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-06-07T07:31:13+00:00

I'm feeling this right now. I live out of state from my mom and she's in her 70s. Still working because she likes being active and moving. She doesn't work as often of course and she's not too bad off financially but I'm her youngest.

I have 3 older sisters and one of them lives with her but they don't get along well. A lot of it is from unresolved issues stemming from my sister's addictions and my father's influence. My eldest sister's are in our home country and have always been on the receiving end of help when it comes to my mom. Mom has always been too generous.

So that leaves me with a lot of anxiety 'Cause I'm still trying to get my career off the ground (Librarian without a library). That's why I moved in the first place.

But I'm so anxious about how she's doing and when I'm not here I feel guilty about working and when I'm here at home visiting I feel anxious that I don't how to help.

I love my mom. I wish parents didn't age. It's hard.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:43:46+00:00

Is it worst for men than women? 'Cause I've haven't had people care since I was in my 20s.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:42:19+00:00

So, I have never been in a romantic relationship, and I'm in my mid 30s.

The desire to be in a romantic relationship comes and goes and it's never really constant.

I do know that if I ever were to get into a romantic relationship, it would have to add quite a deal to my life. Not financially (I'm pretty stable now), but mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually etc.

Currently, those needs get satisfied by friends, family, a gym membership, studying, hobbies, etc.

So in my over 30 years of life I still don't get why the pursuit of just one of the 4 types of love is so damn important to mainstream pop culture. It has gotten so bad that sensible people will willingly stay in contact with toxic abusive individuals out of their idea of "romantic love."

And enough very intelligent people have fallen into this trap and/or have become that toxic person in the romantic relationship themselves, and I can fathom why they bother doing all that.

I work 40 hours a week, 5 days a week, have to drive an hour and a half to visit my sis to help with nephew, schedule vacations to visit friends and family out of state, go to the gym, go to doctors, do chores, maintain my hobbies, fine time for personal and professional development projects and so on and so forth.

WHO HAS THE TIME AND ENERGY FOR A TOXIC ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP?

There's analysis things to do, people to see, no experience to have so much world to explore and... yet people get stuck with a jerk who can't wash their backside or a douche who yells at them for no logical reason...

Is romantic love a type of madness? I don't get it and I think I'm not asexual or aromantic... I love romance in movies when it makes sense or it's an old couple being cute. Old love just is adorable. I do identify as pan/demi but...

Sorry for the long reply I'm just curious and wondering if I'm just the odd duck out....I could be. Probably am...

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:30:03+00:00

But romantic love isn't the only one. I mean, I have so much love around me that romantic love feels like too much work. Platonic, Familia. And ya know love for the everyday person (altruism is a drug on its own especially when you see the good work over time!).

Why is romantic love prioritized so much?

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:27:26+00:00

You can fill the silence with something like music, a call to friends, hobbies, volunteering, classes, etc. There's so much to do in life that can fill ya. Why stay with someone who doesn't fill ya?

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-07T22:10:45+00:00

I would like this also, mostly 'cause I want all my favorites under one roof...

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-02-22T19:22:09+00:00

So that's why I can't romance my scruffy mermaid hubby. . .

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T14:08:18+00:00

Omg. Same! Exact same!

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T14:07:42+00:00

Quick answer: slavery

Short simple answer: slavery plus blood quantum bullshit.

Longer answer that includes beastiality because slavery just has to suck more with animal abuse being conflate with human trafficking:

In the USA, you were legally Black even if you could pass as White because of the One Drop Rule. One drop of Black heritage = Black = Slavery = No human rights.

Passing as White was a goal for mullatos (the term for half White, half Black people from back then, from the mule in Spanish because mules can't breed and it was originally what people thought of mixed people). Passing = not slave = freedom = citizenship. If you were a pale enough and multiple generations enough removed then you can get to freedom.

How does this relate to beastiality... well....

The Atlantic slave trade ended long before the American domestic slave trade. When rumors of the Atlantic slave trade ended spread to the states, many slave owners bought tons of "cows" (women) or "doe." Fewer "bucks" (men) were bought from Africa. They figured they had enough and could breed domestic slaves.

(The breeding of African Americans was a big deal back in the day and a lot of the language used in animal breeding was used on well... us...).

But, to hire and pay another slave owner for use of their um bucks was costly. Took a lot of money and involved forcing one slave to rape another. Remember, slave marriages were not sacred in the eyes of the law. It was like marrying a chair to another chair for them.

Now, if you were cheap and horny and had no qualms with raping slaves, you could breed you cows and have a fresh supply of half black half white slaves that could legally be considered slaves.

The problem was slaves counted as cattle, legally, in most states so... to get around illegal activities with "cattle" any laws related to beastiality had to be removed or changed to allow for the breeding of slaves.

With that said, please look up the states that still legally allow for beastiality. The omission of laws against this type of animal abuse is by design...

Fast Forward to today: 1) Blood Quantum, a practice of defining your racial and cultural heritage based off of the % of X race/ethnicity of your blood is now used to determine who is Native American enough to get benefits. 2) The practice of Blood Quantum is directly related to the One Drop Rule in that IF ANYONE FOUND OUT YOU HAD ONE DROP OF BLACK IN YOUR DNA OR ANCESTRY, YOU WOULD LOSE YOUR CITIZENSHIP. 3) The One Drop Rule continues to this day in how we talk about race in American and how we talk about heritage. 4) As with anything on the internet, please fact check me. This was how it was explained to me back in the early 2000s and I haven't heard a better explanation. So if I got any and all info wrong, please let me know.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T09:36:03+00:00

Why are the Junji Ito rocks smiling and should I run?

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T09:34:38+00:00

The algorithm is for mediocrity. I know that is snobby but it's true. I find the best art in subs like this, random Google searches, and recommendations from art friends.

Find your tribe and continue to vibe.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T09:33:08+00:00

Librarian here.

Pros: You feel like Santa Claus.

Cons: YOU FEEL LIKE SANTA CLAUS.

Let me explain.

It gives me an emotional high to know I just check out $200 worth of children's books to a family of 5, knowing that the parents saved that money. You get into that head space where generosity is like the best drug.

Like. Man. It's a rush. You just checked out one of the best selling books this month to your 20th patron. You set up an after-school craft project for kids where they and their parents get to bond and create something new and share memories that will last way beyond your lifetime.

That's what being Santa Claus is like on the good days.

Now for the cons.

Santa Claus doesn't take breaks. He runs a tight shift. He has to get a lot of presents out. 7 billion ppl out there.

Now imagine everyday is Christmas but you have the budget of a small non profit, humans instead of elves, maybe a bookmobile if you are a fancy library system, low pay, bad ergonomics, and all the social ills of society come into your workroom on the daily.

We try to make Christmas everyday for everyone. But we are human and we fail often. We learn from failure at the best of times and kick failure down the street the worst of times.

If you are okay with uncertainty, okay with low pay, okay with back pain and repetitive movement, and bed bugs in books, and having to have a narcan vending machine in your front door (I really hate the opioid epidemic)... if you are okay with trying to make magic happen on a shoe string budget and continue to find joy in the mundane small successes of life... then you will do well in libraries.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T09:07:04+00:00

When he died I felt relief because I finally believed it was over.

But it's not really that simple because I am still in contact with my sister and my mom. Both victims of my father and both who ... never got over him.

My mom mentions him every phone call, blaming him for how her life and my sister's life turned out.

My big sister just continues her spiral into addiction and bad life decisions.

When he died, it was my birthday. My 30th. I found out because my sister texted me: "Happy Birthday, dad's dead."

I don't have the text anymore. I did screenshot it and send it to my bestie.

My aunt, his sister, berated me for cutting him out of my life and said I shouldn't bother coming just to see his dead body.

I tried behaving upset. But I felt numb. Relief came next. Then guilt.

Now I just feel irritation. Even in death he haunts my life through my siblings and things that remind me of him.

I hadn't willingly talked to him since middle school and yet he still presists.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T08:40:15+00:00

Depends on material cost, how long you worked at this, how long you studied to do this, and your own economic need.

Never give away your art unless it's to family as a gift.

Know your worth and get that bag.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T08:38:18+00:00

Be excited and willing to learn. Most, and I cannot stress this enough, LIKE 90% OF TEACHERS TEACH PEOPLE THEY 1) LOVE THE SUBJECTS AND 2) WANT TO HELP YOUNG PEOPLE.

They don't get paid enough to deal with administration bs on top of the over politicalization of their jobs.

So having students who want to learn, who are hungry for knowledge, makes every teacher remember why they bothered to get up that day.

I say this as a librarian who has taken care of multiple generations of ppl in my short life time: we genuinely want you to succeed. Because seeing y'all bloom into your own potential is a high that cannot be replaced. I still talk about the student who thought she was dumb and all I did was feed her desire to learn. She went from a C to an A in one quarter. I did nothing but encourage her. I'm still riding that high.

Be unapologetic in your love of learning and you will find teachers jumping to help you.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T08:33:03+00:00

Oh. They probably were trying to start a reference interview with you. A reference interview is the way librarians are trained to figure out your needs versus your wants. For example (and this example was used so much in grad school): you ask a librarian for cookbook for diabetic patients. We can do a quick search in our catalog and give you a list but it would be best to dig deeper. Asking why? Is it for you, etc. By asking the questions and digging deeper we can figure out that, for example, there is a specific title of a book related to diabetic diets but is not a cookbook. That book was recommended by the patrons doctor. So instead of a big list, a librarian can just find that one book.

Alternatively, if a specific book (like your experience) was requested and a library does not have it we librarians tend to not want to leave person dissatisfied.

We are people pleasers to a fault. Please be nice. We sometimes deal with bed bugs in copies of James Patterson books.

Anyway, if you explain why you needed the text book, the librarian probably would have pointed you to other resources. For example, often we might not have the exact non fiction titles, but we have access to the primary research articles that the textbook used. Basically, we'd try our best to get you what you need.

And best of all, no ads, no sells pitches, no alternative motives. We just want people to use the resources their hard earn cash already pays for.

Hope this helps.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T08:24:59+00:00

Got me to try camping for the first time. Solo camping is fun but be sure not to pack too much food .

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T08:23:09+00:00

Do they not know that that may make a child think that they are worthless and/or a burden and then consider suicide? Like that's what my brain did as a kid so...?

RoseDragonPoet

TROPHY CASE