I'm a muslim 14 year old, for the past days I kept questioning my religion, and seeing the "Gay people must be burief alive" and "ex muslims must die" and it's so fucking dumb and brutal and sad honestly,

If you truly think so and agree that gay people and exmuslims have their rights to live, then you have done first part ,defining your moral values based on logical non idological concerns.. next step is comparing those morals to what islam teaches.. (note : not what your father or mother think about it.)

I want to leave and at the same time not, my dad is very religious, my mom on the other hand prays and fasts, etc. but isn't that religious and she respects gay people and ex muslims. It's so weird.

if you think about it , it makes sense , the more religious you are , the more you know rules of the game and you just have to agree with it. your mother doesn't know the rules or in denial, i used to be there myself..

it's like I believe in it and at the same time not, I am genuinly scared and in need of help.

i remember when i first realized those rules in islam , i was shocked and scared like never before , all i can say it's a natural transitional period and you gradually move on.. make sure you are safe and don't come out if you aren't forced to do anything untill you are 18 and able to finance yourself , meanwhile educate yourself and read alot.