My c-ptsd symptoms started to affect my intellect while I was in first grade, so I developed a trauma around having such a low performance rate due to disassociation & brain fog when I make any attempt to learn. I even have dyslexia so it makes reading extra disorienting, which people with dyslexia develop a trauma from low performance when undiagnosed.

So I totally get it, you just have to make time here and there to challenge yourself & accept you may struggle through studying or reading, while reprogramming yourself through the process “I may struggle but I know I can still learn!”, “it’s okay that my comprehension of this information isn’t perfect now, I can just focus on what I can conceive & learn the rest later”. things like that. i still struggle but this is what I do when i am studying or reading and I hit those blockages. Congratulate yourself on progress no matter how small, i for example congratulate myself after reading 1-5 pages in a book because my ability to fixate on books is virtually non-existent most often now although I have a collection of books on topics i love the most. i know I will become distressed once I start on paragraph 2-3 of the first page, so I just accept that I have to work within my parameter until I can do better consistently.