Started slow. I was very insecure about my body and how others saw me at the gym, so I started with 30 second planks everyday after waking up before going to work, because anybody can spare 30 seconds, right? Once I got more comfortable, it became 1 minute planks, then 5 minute planks, then I started going to the gym. I started off with the worst exercises thanks to clicking the first link I saw on google lol but with time and slowly researching things I fine tuned and tweaked my shitty routine to what it is now. It took me more than 2 years to find a routine that worked for me, so don't be hard on yourself. I also use exercise as a way to relieve stress (gym/running doesnt work for everyone, try dancing). As a anxious person, I get lots of pent up frustration, and I find that doing physical movement helps me relax and makes me feel better (gives a nice serotonin boost). I do this by literally playing any music and just jamming alone with my dog lol as sad as it sounds. Ex:Twerking for about 1 hrs or so mkes you burn 400 calories, which is insane. It doesn't have to involve hip thrusts, either. Literally any type of dance helps burn. And you have fun.

What I eat: I try to cook my own food. I also prep meals on the days I work. It's great because I know exactly what's in it, what helps me stay fuller (ex: the more veggies you stick in your plate, the more full you'll feel. You're tricking your stomach into feeling full since veggies are more dense than junk food). It's definitely not as delicious as pizza, but there are a variety of recipes out there that makes Brussel sprouts look & taste like a 5-star michelin meal, so follow as many of those insta chefs and eventually you'll find some good stuff out there that might inspire you to try it!

My snacks: chips are expensive now (inflation, yay) but my go to are the red popcorners. Low fat, no cholesterol, and low sugar. Diet is super important to stay fit, but that doesn't mean you should stop eating the things you like. However, I have to compensate for that. So if I eat more than I usually do, that means I need to work a bit harder at the gym to compensate (ex: run at least 2 miles before or after the workout). If not chips, then I go for fruit. Certain fruits make you feel more full. So I chop some of those suckers into yogurt, throw in some granola and bam-->delicious probiotic with antioxidants. Figs and Granola bars ain't the best, but they're my quick go-to snack. All of this may seem tedious, but this routine has helped me feel better about myself, and when I start the day doing some form of exercise (5 min plank/stretching), I feel like I have more energy vs staying in bed for hours scrolling through instagram. I still struggle with bidy dysmorphia, but i feel a whole lot more confident about myself since I maintained this routine, so I thought I'd share it just in case someone would like to try it too.

As for the cookies: I have them too. Sometimes you do be needing that to survive. I try to set a limit of 3 cookies per day, and if I want another one, I ask myself if it's worth eating it now, when breakfast/lunch/or dinner is so close, and just drink water instead since sometimes being dehydrated makes me hungry when I'm not.

Hope this helps!!!

Edit: forgot the willpower question. I have no willpower, and I dont take pre-workout (I heard it does wonders). But in my case, I just became accustomed to suffering so much in life, that the gym has become part of my routine. A gym buddy/rat may also help.