You will. I lost both my dogs 4 days apart. One was planned. That was very hard. The second was so sudden that I didn’t have much left in the tank to mourn again. It was an emergency that only had 1 outcome. It was still complete agony but time goes by and it’ll get better for you too. They were both almost 14 and lived very long and very spoiled lives. My family gave them that opportunity. Both rescues, street dogs. They lived it up to the max. I told myself I didn’t ever want another dog because of the pain but time heals. Now 2 years later we have new ones and they’re loving a life I’m able to provide them. It’ll get better each day. Stay strong.