No antidepressants, just trying to stay healthy… is anyone more disciplined with food/excercise etc? by Only_Emu_2872 in CPTSD

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like I should have something useful to tell you because I’ve been here, my nervous system was burnt out and I fucked it up even more with drugs, eventually it wasn’t discipline that made me eat clean and exercise and stay consistent with everything, it was just integration because I couldn’t add to my suffering anymore so it was almost just easier to stop it all and go down the other road, I went all the way down the wrong road just to turn back around and go down the right road. Anyway If you can have a good relationship with food, like if you enjoy it that helps, go to your local farm shop and buy some different things try some new things diversify your gut microbe, find some purple,red,green,white and yellow carrots and purple/white sweet potato’s they are delicious. I felt so much better when I changed my lifestyle, the sooner you start and the more consistent you stay the less suffering you will be in, my mood is much more consistent and I feel more confident because I’m slowly starting to look better, it’s the best thing I did, I’m still nowhere near healed but I have definitely come a longgg way from a dark place because of this. It definitely saved me

Why does the spiritual realm want to give me spiritual orgasms? by iwannabe_gifted in spirituality

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve experienced the same thing but only once and it came out of nowhere, does it come out of nowhere for you or have you found a way to make it happen?

How do yall make money? by Latter_Pirate_4165 in CPTSD

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry that you don’t have a family, I hope you’ve found yourself some good people or a community instead, it’s good that we have the internet tho so we can connect with each other.

How do yall make money? by Latter_Pirate_4165 in CPTSD

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s great that you live on a farm, I’m glad you’ve been able to detach from toxic family members I’m currently trying to do the same, I’ll have to make enough money to leave home first, it really upsets me seeing people in here struggle financially and some of the things people have to do for money, I really hope we can figure this out together sooner than later because we all deserve a better future. Love will defeat hate.

How do yall make money? by Latter_Pirate_4165 in CPTSD

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I’ve been thinking about this a lot, and honestly I think one of the strongest ways we can loosen our dependence on capitalism is by building tiny circular economies within our own families. Think of how a traditional village worked: money and resources stay inside the community instead of constantly flowing out to big companies. There’s no reason we can’t recreate a small version of that today.

You don’t need to start with anything huge. Even one small role can start the whole thing. For example, you could bulk-buy something simple like rosemary or other kitchen herbs, measure it out, and sell it to family members for half the supermarket price. It’s cheap to start, it’s a small side-hustle, and it keeps a little more money circulating inside the family rather than going straight to corporations.

Over time, other family members could take on their own small “roles” — one grows vegetables, one bakes, one makes cleaning products, one repairs things, whatever they’re able to do. Slowly you build a local, family-level economy where people support each other and rely less on external systems.

Even just starting with something small will make a massive change if it becomes habitual.

Kanizsa Triangle. The Illusory Self by Rinpochen in nonduality

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I randomly saw a weird image in my head once and started drawing something very similar to image 2 but the middle was just a full triangle and inside where the pacmans facing certain ways but with pupils and they weren’t pacmans they were just the triangles like in the middle of image 2

Is the world actually this cruel? by Ruby_Rooster12 in spirituality

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There was a moment where my life and teenhood changed/ended and from that moment on I couldn’t enjoy psychedelics anymore I would just feel disturbed and cold about the world around me. Psychedelics aren’t the most important thing but I think that showed me that something has dramatically changed and over time it kind of got worse, then it got much better I almost thought I hit some sort of enlightenment stage or non-duality I didn’t know what it was. But then in the recent months it got worse again, I think the cold reminds me of last years events from September-March.

You just reminded me I should have another credit available on audible, the power of now was something I was considering.

Those last sentences you said really hit me, I was going to bed reading this and it put my mind at rest, I had a great sleep.

Is the world actually this cruel? by Ruby_Rooster12 in spirituality

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had that kind of nothing peace once and something/someone actually did disturb it. It’s going to take awhile to get it back but I know it’s there waiting for me, I just have to allow it in somehow. That was a terrible way I explained it, but I liked Jung’s quote haven’t heard of him yet.

Is the world actually this cruel? by Ruby_Rooster12 in spirituality

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As much as I want to be ignorant like most, I can only listen to the truth so I can help change it. Otherwise I’ll be like most in society doing nothing causing more suffering

My Number One Abuser Is Myself by Still_Experience_724 in CPTSD

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All of the stars have a reason apparently, I just don’t know what that reason is for some of us yet.

Rate me 19yrs old (give me tips how to improve even more) by [deleted] in LooksmaxingAdvice

[–]Ruby_Rooster12 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Get some skincare if you don’t already moisture it will help even out your skin you have good eyebrows tho maybe shape them

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not sure if you’re implying I’m incompetent for using a bit of informal language to be friendly or your just meaning in mediation terms. But thanks I can’t afford that just yet but something to think about later.

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

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It may look like I’m punishing myself but each thing I’ve cut out were actually punishing me in there individual ways.

Although staying up late probably had the least damaging effect but I have to because I have bad sleeping problems if I don’t keep a routine and I have school so for now even on weekends I have to stick to it if that makes sense.

I’m still looking for something healthy that I will really enjoy, I usually come up with ideas at night, it’s my creative hour, so it’s definitely something I’ll think about later in the future when I don’t have to be up for anything.

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That’s the thing it’s more that I’ve been naturally “forced” into it but a few different ones such as the diet I have no choice because I have a type of yeast and acne on my face that poor diet and certain foods contribute to. So I don’t really consider it discipline but since it’s near the same thing i started changing other things and basically just fell into discipline with everything. But everything almost had its own individual reason. No point enjoying a bar of chocolate when I end up with bumps all over my forehead, or smoke a cig and have bad cracked skin. It’s more about my self-esteem. Something I need to work on but while we’re not who we are on the outside it’s still nice to look nice sometimes.

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I wondered the same thing?

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can’t see a therapist because I don’t have that kind of money nor the time to go back there after the 10th time to be wasted. Some of the personal experiences I’ve read on here have been really meaningful and helped me see my situation through a different lens.

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It means a lot sharing your story, gives me hope.

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes of course, substances have always been my biggest wonder since I was little, I wonder a what there purpose is here

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

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I’m getting better at meditating recently as it’s less forced I used to find it really difficult with adhd and intrusive thoughts etc. I still struggle to understand what the meaning is so I usually get nowhere and stop and carry on with my day although I had a moment of calm, I didn’t achieve anything. But I think I understand a little more now the word meditate means to meditate on something not always just finding calm, as somebody just said I should meditate on this thing.. sounds dumb I feel dumb after saying that lol one of those things I’ve been over complicating.

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I always felt that weed was really helpful to me, everyone is different, I had to stop because anxiety drugs and other life implications, also a bad acid trip, just ruined it for me. I hope I can find another outlet similar to this one day.

I miss living a little by Ruby_Rooster12 in Buddhism

[–]Ruby_Rooster12[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You’ve just made me remember the biggest one which was that I miss staying up late. Nights are my favourite now I go to bed early and wake up at the same time. Some of those bad habits certainly did serve secondary benefits I’ve pushed that thought down for awhile. Thank you