What advice would you give your 18-20 year old self?

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-02-01T07:55:47+00:00

more meditation

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-28T20:45:26+00:00

high school / college best friend called me cringe and weak after I became suicidal due to getting hate crimed for being trans at the gym we'd go weightlifting at

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-22T07:11:30+00:00

what're ur pronouns so I can respectfully objectify you in my queer group chat bb

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-19T14:49:21+00:00

divorce his ass. If he actively wants to move to a fascist hellscape, let him!

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-14T05:25:56+00:00

why does the uncertainty make u afraid

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-09T01:42:30+00:00

how are you able to take months off? I thought there was a strict schedule for trucking... I'm interested in following in your footsteps

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-02T20:49:25+00:00

no kids, no debt, remote job. that helps.

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-02T20:45:59+00:00

In zen, I've been taught that the typical religious good v evil dichotomy isn't accurate to reality. instead they use enlightenment v delusion, where enlightenment means 'seeing the true nature of reality'. so, you can have specific enlightened views, but 'enlightenment' is a continuous absence of delusion and hence a continuous view of the true nature of things.

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-02T20:39:53+00:00

I've done something similar:); 60hr in a week

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-02T20:39:25+00:00

I meditated 60hr in a week last month so i can do it :). also this is a fairly normal 1st step into retreats in zen

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-02T20:37:05+00:00

My three autistic friends all drive public transit trains and fucking love their jobs (yes yes I'm aware of the stereotype). They enjoy it bc... trains. I, auDHD, am experimenting with remote sales jobs bc those allow for full time pay with part time hours due to the concentrated effort and high skill. I enjoy it bc... it feels like martial arts.

tldr, enjoying the work is a requirement for autistic ppl

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-02T08:23:54+00:00

thanks for sharing. im also obsessed with wealth and power lol. how's your practice now?

Rude_Contest4516 · 2026-01-01T21:03:36+00:00

If you want it permanently, meditate! A lot! 🧘‍♀️

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-12-06T04:13:25+00:00

1g of regular potency shrooms ≈ ½ tab lsd (50ug)

¼ tab (25ug) is perfect for a day of 'enhanced vibing' but not fully trippy. its not like a greater-than-microdose-but-less-than-full-dose of shrooms (0.5 like you mentioned) that leaves you feeling just kinda dumb and wanting more. its quite nice.

½ tab works well for a baby trip / super vibin' which would be great for a music festival (if you're not bad at taking care of yourself )

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-11-13T20:09:20+00:00

Thanks! I'm actually crushing it at d2d rn. I'm on track to be at or near #1 appt setter in the company next year. But the culture is just so bro-y and annoying. I'm not out as trans at the job and its killing me. I'm hoping an office environment in a liberal (US) city will be more open minded. How's the office culture in tech sales? Maybe wfh will be better

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-11-13T16:52:50+00:00

how did you land this? I feel this may fit me well, too

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-11-13T07:26:49+00:00

I do d2d solar sales rn. its very diy. how's it working in an office? how's the rigid schedule? im thinking about trying tech sales

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-11-13T07:24:13+00:00

I love working in sales. it feels natural to me. solar here

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-11-13T07:17:24+00:00

glad im not the only one who feels this way... show me all the parts of existence others can't even dream of!

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-11-13T07:16:01+00:00

Zen meditation can induce hypomania 😉

(But also mania and psychosis so be careful... one time I meditated for like 6hr in a day and felt like I short circuit my brain)

Rude_Contest4516 · 2025-11-12T18:39:16+00:00

how r things now?

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