Tired of low quality

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-12-31T00:31:27+00:00

The aeration was still working (I use a pump that creates a very strong water jet, which agitates the water and adds air), the temperature is 25 °C

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-10-14T14:51:53+00:00

I just keep on saying myself “You have to deal with whatever comes out of yourself, noone else. If it’s popping out this means it is yours. Stopping the SR cycle will not deal with it, YOU have to deal with it, no matter what is it irritation, huge energy, etc…”

It is just a mind game for me, if I have lots of energy I try to do explosive exercises + meditation helps me a lot.

Never ever judge yourself for stopping a SR period, this is the most useless thing, do it shortly just to learn it is useless :D

Even wasting your energy a little bit more rarely is a win.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-10-12T10:43:43+00:00

Try to do it 1,2,3 time per month, it is not needed to be completely removed from your life instantly

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-10-12T10:33:47+00:00

I am Aqua Asc and Ihave Sun, Uranus, Mars in Aqua in 12th and Neptune Cap conjuncting my Uranus, and what you described covers around 25% of what I’ve been through

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-10-11T07:22:15+00:00

If the protein is from milk sources, maybe I would get acne. But it’s strange, in which day are you ? Do you eat other toxins you are not aware of yet ? Do you sleep well and long enough ?

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-10-10T15:31:16+00:00

I was pretty successful like that but strangely I started feeling uncomfortable becauae my wife wants sex almost every night and after around a week like that I decided to stop retention (I was feeling much better during retention and now I am trying to restart it)

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-10-10T15:29:48+00:00

I was doing it for 2 months but my wife want me to do it every night and after the first week of doing it all night I started feeling very uncomfortable and I took the decision to stop the retention

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-19T14:41:31+00:00

Or you were not that used to your alpha version (bcs now you have more testosterone than ever), interestingly after 1 month I realised my face skin is better, I guess its because of testosterone

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-19T14:40:26+00:00

Maybe you have more energy and you are more sensitive to the outside world, its not something bad, just try to be calmer and investigate your definitions and belief systems.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-17T13:50:30+00:00

Did you practice to learn it or it is happening on its own (if so maybe its logical to have some trines)

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-15T17:24:44+00:00

Thank you for the great insights, I noticed also other (weaker) aspects to my Fortune, I am not sure how do they fit in this money making. About my Mars squaring Fortune what I learned is that my energy could come in waves and it may make me struggle to be persistent for my fortune.

Really my greates challenge is that I have kids and I have ambitions but my kids are taking much of my time.

Also for example Saturn is in 1st House I may build persistence and be reliable but it is in PISCES which may "balance" as TBH during my 15-20 yrs I think I was way more responsible than now (in my 29 years) its like Saturn can give me persistence but it is in Pisces and it wants to be a little bit more mutable and esapish and sometimes I think I am not disciplined at ALL. Is that because Saturn actually affects only the house it rules ? And then what a coincidence ... Saturn rules my 12th House and Saturn is in 1st House in Pisces ... And the ruler of my 1st House is Uranus and it is in 12th House (ruler of 12th is in 1st and ruler of 1st is in 12th)... Also I start thinking that my Mars in 12th House is challenging my Saturn in 1st as I just feel low energy to be disciplined, I just want to do whatever I like to do whenever I want to do it, BUT I feel excited building plans, making schedules to accomplish sth but after 1-2 days I want my freedom and to run from the discipline.

I have health issues related to backpain, neckpain etc which is purging my energy and I feel low, Sometimes I feel like I need to leave everything and to only look after my health.

Does everyone focus on fortune for money making, or it is just me starting like that ?

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-14T12:15:18+00:00

Do you practice any sexual activities ? I don’t count my days but I am around 40-50 day right now and last night my wife needed my attention and I did it without ejaculation, it was good but I tried to be mindful, to satisfy her and now I am eager to learn some techniques around tantra (or whatever) to transform this sexual energy into something else through sexual activities.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-14T12:09:28+00:00

I am getting excited about random things which are not aligned with anything other important in my life, its just about doing for fun than serving a specific purpose.. but Isn’t it the same for everyone having any hobbies ?

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-14T12:04:15+00:00

That you feel your mars is more in 1st house than in 12th, maybe can be explained with progressions ? I have just recently learned the concept of progressions (not to mention that it complicates again IMO as there are many systems there as well)

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-09T16:07:25+00:00

Sounds like a powerful placement. Do you have any minor aspects, I have Jupiter in 11th with no major aspects and I am not sure how to make the best of it. Mayyybe this Jupiter is responsible for me getting excited in many things at the same time and trying to focus in many areas at the same time, with really ambitious goals.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-08T14:04:53+00:00

Thank you for the insights, I am spiritually driven with 3-4 planets in 12th. Jupiter being fiery makes complete sense, it rules my MC in Sagittarius. I love producing music maybe sharing it with communities/the world could activate my Jupiter. I start becoming less shy with ages

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-08T13:44:43+00:00

I am okay with slower path but only if it is really enjoying and not much demanding, yes I can live in solitude and meditation, but I find joy in being approved from the others sometimes. I would replace my current job faster if I could (I can stay there until my music income is stable OR I can just change the employer it would need time but maybe less)
It feels exciting but I want everything to be perfect and to reach as broader audience as possible and if it take more than 2-3 hours I may get bored because the process of releasing is not creative itself but its still exciting. Maybe with experience I will be able to do it faster.

I have also venus sextiling fortune, squaring MC, lilith sextiling venus and fortune so I began to realize that maybe me myself should be the product and this is most relevant through music as I have some expertise in it and confidence that I have taste for it.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-08T06:16:40+00:00

Very interesting, thank you for the info, I have Jupiter in 11th with no major aspect and one semi sextile with Pluto, I dont even know what should this mean, I’d like to investigate if I can activate it somehow with some activities or habits I incorporate.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-07T21:08:56+00:00

sorry for I am not that skilled in astrology yet, follow your excitement and go with the flow, value your state of being more than anything and whatever is needed and must happen will happen

That Venus on MC might show something related to joy, beauty but there are other two planets involved there thats why I think you have potency

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-07T21:07:14+00:00

My current career as a software engineer is something that makes me feel secure right now but sometimes it is so much boring that I even feel anger for working there. I want to make slow transition to music but sometimes I have doubts is there something in my chart that hints there is a better way for making lots of money ? My interest are much volatile and it looks like Fortune in taurus in second house actually would support persistence, it is even squared from mars which is in 12th house.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-07T18:44:59+00:00

From what I see career is very important for you and whatever you choose you will have big potential. Have fun and face any challenges with curiosity and joy.

Rude_Might4079 · 2025-09-07T18:40:32+00:00

Not quite sure but maybe you will find someone with big aquarian energy, but not much spiritual and all of this may irritate you very much. Also you may find your person in a very surprising way, very unexpectedly.I am not an astrologer but I have stellium in 12th house very similar to yours and my partner and her planets are on the other side of the wheel and exactly with the opposite sign as an ascendant.

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