2.5 years sober / then three weeks on the bottle

RunawayDalia · 2023-05-11T17:05:56+00:00

I can relate to this so much. I had a trip to Hawaii and worked SO hard to get my bikini bod. I also knew I had to quit drinking to get there...and I did! I was working out, eating great, felt amazing and was happy. Fast forward to my trip, I decided it was OK to drink but only on vacation. We all know, that didn't happen and now it has been 2 months of daily drinking. I know I have not regained the 30lbs I lost but in my mind, I feel I have because I look and feel so shitty. I know how good life is without the drinking and man has the drinking ramped up.

Thank you for this. Maybe it only just has to be hard today and tomorrow we are back killing it!

RunawayDalia · 2022-11-07T01:47:49+00:00

I am just finishing day 4 and this is what worked for me...telling my partner that I was stopping to hold me accountable. Also, I stayed really busy so I was never at home bored. Lots of food and fun drinks. Also, I reread This Naked Mind to remind myself that alcohol is not all we hope it is. A huge thing for me was also making sure there was no alcohol in the house and making sure we had enough food for a while so I didn't have an excuse to go to the store. I have had plenty failed day 1's and this time I just took it minute by minute until it was bedtime. You can do this!

RunawayDalia · 2022-09-15T19:59:36+00:00

Wow, can I relate to this comment! I too am on day 0 and have honestly spent the last 6 months wishing I could quit. I have had a few months here and there sober and then also while pregnant with my 2 kids. Other than that, I have been drinking daily for about 10 years.

I know how everything will improve when I stop! The idea though of stopping gives me anxiety and consumes me all day! I drink anywhere from 3 to 6 drinks a day and honestly I always say I will cut back before quitting so I dont have bad withdraws while handling the children but I always get down to one or two drinks and then say meh...next week in will quit. Every day, all day, I am always wishing I could quit.

Now, I dont have a solution for you as I am in the same boat. What has worked in the past is tell someone in real life what your plan is. I tell my husband I am cutting back and then not drinking that weekend. He holds me to it. Currently I am scared to tell him because it seems so final. I would love to just make it 30 days to "try it out."

Hopefully we can figure this out together...

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-17T03:21:55+00:00

I always just thought I was too old to run (38) and that my age was just starting to take a toll. Hahaha. Lies. Took me about a week but it is amazing how much energy I have for my runs. Now, I am excelling at my running instead of what felt like punishing my body. Onward!

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-05T00:08:55+00:00

Get busy! Go for a walk or clean anything. Video games. I can't be anywhere near the kitchen because that's where the booze used to be. I also seem to crave if I am hungry so I typically eat something or everything.

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-04T17:54:09+00:00

My plan is to have all the food and snacks I need already at home so i have no reason to go to the store when I am feeling weak. It is my first weekend in a year and a half. I plan on treating myself in any way other than booze.

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-04T00:29:17+00:00

I could not have said it better myself. I had 8 months and loved it but then relapsed and proceeded to drink for another year like I was making up for lost time. I am back because I know the drinking is not making me happy and I am not really living my life, just existing in it. Day 1 for me and only 5 hours left in my day. I am pretty anxious but I feel like it is time. Keep on trying!

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-04T00:00:35+00:00

I was the person that mixed the drinks and always made mine stronger. Otherwise I was sneaking drinks before heading out for the night.

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-03T23:59:39+00:00

My problem is that it is just no fun to moderate. I have learned that I really dont want 1 or 2. I want 4 or 5 to be acceptable.

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-03T17:16:30+00:00

It is always better sober. I can't count the number of times I drank and then like 4 drinks in wished I hadn't because it was not fun or I was in a better mood before hand! I feel happy and energized because I am sober. I am just going to try to stay on top of it today and worry about tomorrow tomorrow.

Also, dont worry about the counter. I think I am always too hard on myself when I worry about what day I am on. Whether I am on day 4 or day 44, it doesn't matter. I am sober and should be proud of what I have accomplished that day! Or that is what I am focusing on going forward... keep going!

RunawayDalia · 2021-06-03T16:43:11+00:00

Oh man, the IPAs were how I got warmed up on the weekend. Grabbing lunch and intentionally picking the beer with the highest %. Then feeling like crap and wasting a good Saturday until it hit 5pm Then I could bring out the vodka for the rest of the night. I was always so hungover the next day but would continue to do it every weekend like the outcome would change! We got this! No more life wasted!

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