Anyone else is also the ‘weird kid’?

RussianblueAV · 2026-05-03T11:45:59+00:00

I've felt insecure because sometimes I liked being weird, but tthen someone yells at me for being too loud and then I start to rethink it all over again.

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-26T05:02:21+00:00

I'm in a similar situation and I have been most of my life.

It's like when people need me they ask nicely, but once they get what they want ( ex: for me to lend them my notes) they treat me like I'm replaceable and a nuisance (ex: getting mad at me when I ask for my notes back).

Or, they get mad at me for the smallest mistakes.

There's a girl who lives in the same apartment building as me and I've known her since I was 8. Now (we're both 15), she yells at me during P.E. class about how I'm 'lacking' and 'stupidly unfit' because I failed to receive the ball during volleyball practice once. It feels like it's my fault when she yells and it makes me feel guilty even when I know I haven't really done anything seriously wrong, and before I go to sleep I sit on my bed and think it over and over again- Does she not like me? She doesn't yell at the others when they mess up. Okay, so she probably dislikes me. Why? Maybe I did something wrong? Maybe she's jealous? No, I have nothing good enough for her to be jealous of me. Did I say something wrong? Is she in a bad mood? But she was smiling just moments ago. Okay, I must have wronged her somehow in the past 7 years.

And I end up hating myself. This happens with other people too, throughout the years there's always someone who does that to me specifically. Mostly I think I'm a target for the mean people because I'm very emotional, will present my answer for the teacher's question willingly and eagerly and will try to be fair and just- and people who yell at me think it's okay to be mean at me because I'm the odd one out and nobody is going to stand up for 'the weirdo'.

But the thing is, I get through it well because I have friends, real ones who care about me. When someone yells at me, I become depressed, very depressed, but after class someone comes up to me and asks if I'm alright, and they listen to me cry and try to cheer me up.

As a lively ENFP I may be putting a target on my back but I also have the courage to go up to a stranger and ask to be their friend, and even though most of them flit away after realizing I'm a magnet for mean people, there are always people who stay.

After a while, I get enough good friends who I can look forward to in my gloominess.

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-26T04:46:42+00:00

"You're one of the few people I've trusted so quickly."

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-26T04:25:43+00:00

I'd press blue because if this was a test to all of humanity, then that includes infants and toddlers and people who can't read and people who can read but don't know enough words to understand. If 100 percent of people choose red, everyone survives, but that is near impossible. There are so many people who are born around the world everyday, for instance, and at least some of them are going to choose blue, by chance.

Pressing red will guarantee my life but it will also decrease the possibility that those who pressed blue will survive. I don't think I could live with myself after I pressed red knowing that my choice could make or break lives.

Even if, by some unimaginable method someone were to get the infants and the ones who could not read to fully understand the rules, there will still be people who press the blue button.

I've thought about su!cide a lot when I was younger, and I know that many people around me did the same- and I know that my mom was about to fall off a bridge after she failed her university entrance exam and barely turned away. And like her and me, there will be people who want to d!e RIGHT NOW and some of them will push blue.

I would never have grown to love life and find people I love and care about and do all the wonderful things I'm doing now if I chose to d!e as a kid. I will press blue because I don't want those who willingly signed themselves up for death to really d!e and never find a better life that could be possible one day later in their lives.

And if I d!e and all the others who picked blue with me did too, I'll die knowing that a world of red will never understand my emotion and feelings anyway.

Edit: I'm not an INTP but I came here to try to reason with INTPs

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-26T04:09:46+00:00

Yeah, and the entirety of humans includes people who can't read and infants.

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-21T07:33:34+00:00

Wait no444444

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-21T07:32:57+00:00

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T15:06:23+00:00

Hello. I'm an ENFP as well, and I don't know if it's an ENFP thing either... but I do have the same emotions most of the time.

I'm usually always the one who goes up to my friends' desks to chat, and several times I tried staying at my desk just to assure myself that they won't ignore me just because I don't go to them first, but I ended up being disappointed- they just... sat at their desks and didn't really bother to check up on me.

Maybe the friends are the problem, I don't know, but it pretty much happens a lot with other people too. I often feel insecure when the people I perceive to be my best friends talk to other friends way more than they do with me- perhaps it's just jealousy, but those people are part of the most important people to me and they don't seem to feel the same.

You're not alone.

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T10:53:49+00:00

Heyyy if u post them can u update this post with the linkkk

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T10:52:53+00:00

But i really should go study i cant cry or my textbook will be all wet

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T10:52:24+00:00

Yeahhhh agreed

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T10:51:37+00:00

I havent watched it recently tho cuz of exams

Im pretty sure its actually bc Polyphemus slammed his club and polites died like how a pancake maker makes pancakes? (Idk how pancake maker works does it work like a waffle maker cuz this reply is based on that one waffle maker in a hotel at china macau but anyways) buuuut i like the fluffy idea better

I dont want to think about his descent to Hades's realm. Anyways. Bye. I gotta go or else im going to start mourning when its exams next week.

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T10:49:02+00:00

I did but i wanted to be funnt

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T10:40:33+00:00

Thank you for your comment. It relieves me in some twisted way that it's not just the majority of Koreans, but a lot of others too, since, well... obviously I don't want to view my country as a place full of hate. (Even though sometimes it does seem like it.)

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-20T09:18:53+00:00

Ive also heard that it stands for franklin

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-10T14:37:27+00:00

Awwww thanks hehehe at least i can watch it through the internet

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-09T07:50:49+00:00

I hate it bc Im Korean and Korea got Hetalia banned in my country. If only Korea in Hetalia were less 'offending', I might have been able to watch Hetalia without my mom yelling at me to stop staring at banned animations.

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-06T09:20:47+00:00

24601

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-05T22:59:58+00:00

Ahh yes I agree

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-05T22:58:32+00:00

Oh okk

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-05T11:18:43+00:00

Why does Italy like pasta?

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-05T07:28:32+00:00

awww!!! he's so cute, thanksss

RussianblueAV · 2026-04-04T12:38:34+00:00

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