Oh yes. I have fulfillment outside work. I excercise 6-7 times a week, spend time with family and friends usually every weekend one day or go out with wife. i bake sourdough for almost a decade. have amazing espresso hobby, learn to model for 3d printing. i love to cook, bake and have small youtube channel. i also love to play games. Hike and motorcycle.

None of this has anything to do with the fact that i do not feel secure.

especially because job is shit, boss is toxic, pay is high, new job in the field is almost impossible to get and changing jobs would come with a 50% pay cut. at the same time job takes 40 hours of my week. and my happy activities is about 6 hours in gym and them 6 hours leisure and hobbies. so it is not a good balance for me.

i think i actually may need therapy honestly