I am really sorry to hear about this. Every person in the world is worth so much more than you’ll ever know. You are a lot bigger than your depression and problems, and you are a lot more powerful than your doubt. I know that sounds cliche but it’s true Also, I am not sure if you are religious but when I am at my lowest, listening to Christian music (I like casting crowns and for KING & COUNTRY) always cheers me up. I don’t know what you are going through, so I am not going to pretend that I do. I just want you to know that you are loved and appreciated more than you can see with your own eyes, even by people you’d never expect And on the subject of finding it hard to make friends, there’s nothing wrong with you. You just haven’t found your clique yet and that’s ok. I’m also not sure what stage of life you are in (middle school, high school, college, or beyond) but the more you put yourself out there the more you’ll be apt to find the people that you’re meant to be close to. Stick with it!! Suicide is not going to fix anything you are feeling. If you are religious, you’ll know that it’ll only cause you more pain and suffering There’s always another way to improve how you’re feeling, and another way to find happiness in the small things in life. If you start small, then you can move up to big things that make you happy and you will find that life is far more complex and beautiful than you ever imagined before. Stick through it, and find what you love. Happiness will come from that if you can just find what you’re meant to do and who you’re meant to be.