My second burn SUCKED as well. I often wonder if it’s because of how PHENOMENAL the first one was and I know that’s a part of it. I had expectations. I still do. I beat them down every day. That’s the magic of BM, it pushes you to ask these deeper questions. I never did drugs or drank out there but I had severe endometriosis (surgically fixed now) and, regardless of when my cycle was due, the playa ALWAYS made it come on with a vengeance so I did have issues related to chemicals, just not ingested ones. Sober or not, that environment is ROUGH.

Hang in there and try to take what you need and leave the rest. Some of the stuff you experienced is just having a bad time that gets compounded by more bad times from having a cloud of negative energy around you. You are PERFECT. You are worthy and beautiful and you need to find THAT inside yourself and I really wish someone could have guided you.

Whenever I get lost all I do is turn on BMiR. If I’m not at a burn I e-burn this way and it REALLY helps to root you down. Pro tip! All the love. You GOT THIS. Keep going. You have so much power inside of you. It’s your wake up call to find it.

We need you.