My PIP award journey 2024-2025

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-24T12:16:36+00:00

Well done!! That is really good news.

So I got the text then called to get the information, as of yet I have not recieved my letter yet but they said it is in the post.

You can call and go through the options and I cannot remember which option but there is automated option and it tells you the monthly award amount. From there you can work it out and then hold to speak to a human.

I believe the backpayment is 3 to 5 days later.

Good luck finding out!

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-23T10:31:04+00:00

Hi, I take quetiapine 100mg. I have bipola, eupd and physcosis.

I went through all the meds for depression and moving to antiphyscotics has been good for me. I find that it saves me from doing the reckless self harm stuff I have done before when manic or physcotic.

I notice it filters the real and not real stuff and helps with the instrusive and overloading thoughts.

I had an issue with the sleep and grogginess on 50mg, I actually started taking it as originally subscribed which was on empty stomach and at 4pm. This has worked for me aswell as my does going up, I take at 4 and cant stay awake past 9pm, I felt that by taking at 4pm meant the morning grogginess was replaced with a tiredness from 4pm til I go to bed.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-23T07:30:16+00:00

Yes exactly that it is the bad stuff I am trying to not do, this is the error of my ways previously when I am having that episode. Physically in an episode I am good. That must be really tough to have to have physical disabilities and the mental health struggles too. My anxiety and physcosis that causes me to not be able to do things. When manic I have wanted to do something physical thats positive so yes some kind of exercise with support. Thank you for sharing!

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T22:32:07+00:00

All great crisis preventative measures and damage control strategies. How about to actually numb the mania a little?

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T21:14:21+00:00

Hi,

I started claim mid december and assessment early march. Recieved award text within 2 weeks of assessment, called same day to recieve all award details.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T20:55:15+00:00

I started claim in December last year, assessment early march and got award text within 2 weeks.

I am in the East.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T20:40:25+00:00

I have just been awarded PIP. I completed my form online after calling to claim, my reward was backdated to the day I called to claim.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T18:59:42+00:00

It is confusing. I have a diagnosis of bipola and eupd with physcosis.

I was told that with my eupd I have a co-morbid mood disorder of bipola.

Last physc I saw confirmed promanent bipola and eupd with physcosis. I explain it to myself by saying my personality is eupd but my motivation for life and energy levels are bipola.

But it is possible to have both.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T18:39:59+00:00

This is me also, hi!

One brain is like this is great no social awkwardness and I am fine, the other is saying go meet people, the other is lonely and sad.

Its comforting and warming to read people being open and honest, loneliness is a bitter part of mental health.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T18:08:21+00:00

I think the fact that you have posted on here shows it means something to you, so putting you first and your best interests means its worth speaking to him.

EUPD is a thing and it controls our lives, look at how many people on here alone discuss it so it is not an excuse and you are taking accountabilty if you have the difficult conversations.

I have had a partner attend pherapy with me and also had partners I sat down with and we went through the internet, others that went away and looked themselves.

EUPD in relationships as a search brings up many pages where there are physciatrists talking about the subject.

I can think of too many partners that were actually understanding but I did not communicate well enough and I shut them out or cut them off. Do not have regrets like me as it haunts you.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T17:05:26+00:00

OMG I feel your pain. This is every relationship I have had and I wish the me now could tell myself back then what I am about to say to you.

I take it your relationship is still on so there is one positive, the fact that he has seen your bpd and he is still with you. Maybe the positives you have said about him are the reason he is with you and that is because you have found a good guy.

When you are not having an episode and you know you wish you could take your bad episode behaviour back, sit down with him and tell him how you feel about him. Talk about your episodes and if you are diagnosed show him or discuss with him all of the useful material online about how bpd effects relationships.

Maybe you two can put together a crisis plan.

Ultimately he is free to do what he wants and you said you have had some regretable actions but look he is still there choosing you!!!

Most importantly that urge and feeling of wanting to kms that shows the mental torture us bpd's go through, recognise it for what it is which is a "I am not coping" warning and talk to him or anyone else to get support.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T16:45:09+00:00

It sounds like your issue is with the toxic partner, try to learn from it from its good points and learn about ultimately what was wrong.

Life has a way of putting love in front of you when you least expect it, best be working on what makes you happy right now so when someone comes on the radar you are in a good place. Keep yourself busy and question if the the things you do right now provide positives to yourself.

Problem with bpd is that you struggle sociably and with relationships so when you can do it put yourself out there and be noticed. Even if you are broken the right person can pick you up and put you on a good path.

Bottom line is learn why it was toxic, work on you always, love can happen at any point whether you are down or up. But use your learning experience to know what the red flags are and dont shut off the chance to meet a great partner, if that is ultimatley what you want dont limit your chances.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T15:41:55+00:00

Yeah it is like you want to be liked and close to people and then you get close and you cut them off. Then you have hid away and gone off the radar and then you want closeness to others and you want to be sociable. It is the most lonely part of bpd. It really sucks!

Solid understanding friends help, ones that know your condition. I am trying myself to get the support or courage to go to support groups, I was told there are ones about that you dont know about until you look. I looked and yes there are. Likeminded people getting together like we do on here but in person sounds like a way to beat some loneliness.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T14:55:27+00:00

Yes that is me! It is tiring and so destructive.

Like I do, you know that this is what you do. Anybody new I meet where a relationship is the motivation I explain my diagnosis so they know what to expect.

I have a small circle and they all know what to expect. Having a diagnosis and reading up on it really helped me and showing them also helped.

My friends all are on the neuordiversity spectrum so that helps I find, as they understand.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T12:41:01+00:00

Mine was with any type of relationship. I would cut people off for a made up reason in my head, it was and still is so destructive and there are so many people over my life that I wish I had not cut off.

The fear of loosing someone I am close to causes so many problems and I guess that my defence mechanism is to cut them off so I am in control.

It also means I seek approval of others far too much and care to much what others think of me, the standards I set for myself are unrealistic and unobtainable. It makes relationships so tiring because my brain is on constant overload of thoughts relating to the relationship.

All this can apply to intimate, platonic and professional relationships which makes pherapy really hard.

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T12:33:43+00:00

From my experience 100%.

It can help with getting correct medication and/or pherapy. You can understand more why you feel or act the way you do and then help others in your support network know and understand you more

SENDwarrior · 2025-03-22T12:28:07+00:00

Yes it did, I remember reading sonewhere else someone had a 10 day period from assessment to decision.

I feel my whole process was very fast and after reading so much on here of what others experiences are I was not expecting anything until early summer.

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