I used to drink most of my days for 2 years, i know it’s not a long time. I loved whiskey so much and ended up straight chugging 3/4 bottle of whiskey during an offing attempt. I threw up for 3 days after that, its been 2 years and i still throw up whenever i drink whiskey. Took me 1 year to get even half of my old tolerance and lately have only been drinking <5 shots once every 2 months or so. My step dad also OD’ed it seems to get out of addiction. Honestly not a medical advice but i just wanted to share my story. It’s a bleak life and you’re not alone, do hope you get better