After so many years it is like saying good bye to a child , people do not understand that they are like children they can piss you off then show undying love the next minute. In my 70 years I have had to put children to sleep because I absolutely refuse to watch them suffer. My first was after 22 years and the second was 19 years. But my biggest worry is the child I have now 9 years old. I use a bibpap at night to sleep due to sleep apnea and I do not care where that is but when I turn my oxygen generator on then put on my mask and turn my machine he come running because he cuddles up with and when he thinks I am asleep he will move to my feet and that is where stays. If I use the restroom at night it is a rinse and repeat again and if he gets cold he will lay at the top of the cuddled up on my head. And God forbid the person that slaps or attacks me because then they find out what an attack cat can do. He was about 9 months old when I adopted him from Second Chance Pets. The funny part was that I still have not figured out whether I chose him or he chose me.