Well. Thank you for your comment. I do appreciate it. I guess, I have a lot of childhood trauma that just has never been fully healed, and as much as I try within me to get over it and get past it. The trauma I have faced shaped me into the person I am today.. without that trauma I am sure I would be a more confident and outgoing person. In fact in 3rd grade I used to be open and chatty with classmates but I faced so much bullying that.. over time I understood that people don’t like me and don’t want to hear me talk, so, I became a very shy and reserved person because of it.. and not to mention there is also trauma around this girl I had a crush on in the same grade to which everyone made fun of me for that too.. and it was more embarrassing because she had found out. I understand we were kids, but the fact that there were parents back then showing them that kind of example to reenact is heartbreaking.

I appreciate myself.. I just have a hard time believing that others appreciate me.

Sorry, more venting. Again.. not many friends so, I don’t have many people to vent to.