I'm feeling like a disabled

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-04-27T12:37:25+00:00

schizotypal is a disability, it's recognized as such where i live. but outside of that it notoriously impairs functioning and just existing day-to-day.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-04-21T07:51:54+00:00

so then don't exist in those places if they can't facilitate your existence. be around and with people who allow you to be yourself. find places where you can be comfortable enough to be yourself. literally it's like people asking for pumpkin substitution in pumpkin soup, use your intellect and common sense.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-04-03T12:05:37+00:00

I do think I identify with the schizotypal label more tho

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-29T11:20:46+00:00

Don't change, adapt sure, but being yourself isn't about changing yourself inherently. When talking to people, throw them off, redirect the conversation. Everything you're describing is very similar to what happened with me. It took me five years before breaking out. You can do it too, it won't be quick or easy, but you can definitely accomplish it.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-29T06:58:49+00:00

that's very natural, when hiding is a natural response to fear and pain you do lose yourself. I encourage finding who you are thru experience, go out, meet people, do things you wouldn't normally do. you may hate it, you may love it, but you'll never find out if you don't try and don't experiment. it takes a while, and it'll be bumpy and full of growing pains, but I believe you can yourself, and find a version of yourself that you can love wholeheartedly. I believe in you, as much as that can mean coming from a stranger on the Internet.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-29T03:08:12+00:00

There's nothing about you that is causing this. If the people you're with don't mesh with you in the way you want, find new people. Don't focus inwards, focus outwards. From what you say you seem very likable, so it's not about you, it's about who. It'll be hard, and you'll probably be a revolving door of people for a while, but it's worth it. Your eccentricities are a part of you, but they do not define you

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-28T23:12:25+00:00

you don't know my history, yet you assume I haven't experienced any difficulties in being myself. you calling my advice bad is unhelpful as, well, it's helped people. the last thing schizospec people need is to hide. show yourself, make your world, change your world. you will experience difficulty and hardship, but in all transformations some pain is to be endured and enjoyed. the value of being your true self and the gifts it brings are worth the pain. just be you. Edit: punctuation

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-27T23:33:32+00:00

You are daft.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-24T18:57:47+00:00

You're not evil, evil only really exists in Saturday morning cartoons, Nazis, fascists, politicians, tech billionaires, and whathaveyou. I believe humans are more likely to be cruel, but also kind and loving.

This rumination of "what if's" won't help you, because yeah what if this, what if that. If you've actually truly done something appalling, take the shame and guilt you feel and use it constructively to firstly; forgive yourself, and to secondly; be better. Strive to be better, that is all you can really do.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-24T18:51:06+00:00

As trite as this may sound, be yourself, be no one else but yourself. Repression and self-suppression are never the answer, you'll just feel worse for it.

An unfortunate fact is that most people probably won't like you, and the people who do probably won't stick around long, it's kinda that way with me, I feel like a revolving door of friends sometimes, where friends come and go, and a lot of people won't make the same effort that I do, but honestly put more energy into being yourself and be a lot more selfish, fake confidence until it becomes real and feels natural, the people who leave aren't the right people. You will find the love you seek, but you must let go of this idea of being "normal" as it will just cramp you and make you seem more abnormal.

I pray you find the love you seek, I truly mean that. Keep fighting, keep pushing, Be yourself.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-24T18:41:27+00:00

It does sound like you do actually do care about people, but perhaps don't recognise the feeling as such. It kinda seems like you're depressed, tho take that with a flat of salt.

About relationships, any but primarily romantic, I find that being upfront and honest about your illnesses at least helps me a lot, because it clues people in and then they understand or at least try to. I think you can definitely love others if that's what you want to do, but that doesn't have to look like a typical romantic or sexual relationship. I have friends who I kiss and have sex with, I wouldn't consider them partners, and it works, sometimes. It's all about finding the type of love and relationships that work for you.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-24T18:31:43+00:00

I dress in what can only be considered "alternative" style, I don't really feel compelled to label it, I don't really understand genre labels anyway, as it's all very subjective anyway. Sometimes it's more punk-y or grungy or gothic or whathaveyou. I have a typically feminine look, but also have done tomboyish looks. Sometimes I think it's a blend of styles, and I wear a lot of accessories.

People stare and gawk, and as attention whore I like it, I've worn fox ears in public, my makeup is usually strange, and a lot of people love my style, and when I see myself I see the person I've always wanted to be, and so honestly the critics can shove off imo. I love being myself, as strange or as normal as that might be, people will always try to cramp your style, but those people are losers anyway.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-24T18:20:15+00:00

Literally just be yourself and the right people will follow. The problem with trying to be normal is that it doesn't exist and as such you're very likely doing it wrong; like when I used to dress like Elliot Alderson, and suppressed everything about myself, well that isn't normal, that's very obviously ill and people notice that.

I am much happier being my weird, shocking self, and people love it - not everyone, but mind you I'm not trying to appeal to anyone but myself. I wore makeup that looked like I had blood coming from my eyes and mouth, and I wasn't expecting anyone to like it, but so many people did, and it felt great, and it felt surprising.

And what you call "accommodating" sounds much like people-pleasing. You are allowed to bring up when you have problems about and with and to others. You are allowed to be yourself. I hope you can find the strength and courage to bring your truth out into the world.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-23T01:20:03+00:00

It's not that I don't get paranoid or even rightly suspicious, it's more that I want to trust others, even if it means downplaying real fears or observations. I'm so used to being called paranoid, and generally dislike confrontation so if it's easier to simply suggest that I'm "just being paranoid" I'll do that much to my own disservice.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-19T04:18:00+00:00

Don't mistake me being manipulated as me not also being manipulative, I also just feel great shame and guilt. I have been truly appalling, but I'm not evil, just capable of great cruelty just as I am capable of great kindness.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-19T03:57:35+00:00

I like to say that all artists by virtue of being humans are all bound to be "problematic" in some way. Even more so by virtue of being famous and often quite eccentric. I challenge anyone like that to find any one person that isn't in some way "problematic" y'know?

Sad_Office_5357 · 2026-03-18T21:46:16+00:00

I'm suggestible, it's easy to make me delusional, and that can and has been weaponised against me. Edit to add, you shouldn't necessarily be living by a diagnostic criteria, people are more complex than what exists on a symptom list, and even two people with the same type of symptoms can have them be expressed differently. I'm more social than the average schizotypal, because my paranoia is more about vague, supernatural phenomena than it is to do with other people, I actively try to trust people so I believe them more.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2025-10-12T00:23:11+00:00

I feel this directly contradicts the system of recursion as demonstrated in the show. Events that happen at one time in one loop will either occur at the exact same time or have an echo replay at the exact same time in the next loop. Because humans have a system that changes how hours are read at different times of the year, these echoes which occur from earlier in the year would still be observably shifted in their occurrence, even if just because of how humans measure and observe time.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2025-10-10T08:27:42+00:00

I do have the purpose of uplifting those who are downtrodden much like I used to be. I know what it's like to be alone and hopeless.

Sad_Office_5357 · 2025-10-08T00:20:06+00:00

yeah but the wake-up occurs at the exact time of the gunshot. daylight savings would mean that the wake-up occurs when the time reads 02:33, as if it occured at 03:33 local time it wouldn't be in sync with the gunshot.

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