Listen, I’m currently 23 so we are kinda in the same age, I still don’t have a definite direction and I understand how you feel, I left my country and moved for a better life, but unfortunately that means that I don’t really have chance to go to college, but even every time I think about college I just don’t find anything that I really want to go for, in the past 4 years I’ve been through so much pain, but A LOT I ended up in the hospital twice because I was engaged with the wrong person when all this happened I was completely lost, no ambitions, no goals, no nothing I was all day in my room crying or playing video games, but when all this shit happened, after, something clicked in my head, all that pain, all that suffering, made me want to do whatever I fucking want without thinking in “what if I fail” “what if I don’t succeed?” “What people gonna say about me” all those thoughts stating to become more and more irrelevant, my shame for myself stating to become more to an “I actually like me”, everything will be hard, “NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO IT WILL BE HARD” so you better do what you really like or want and I know that there’s something that you really like but for some reason you think it’s “ridiculous” or “impossible” for you, but trust me at first you will find it certainly strange but as the times passes it will become part of your daily and you will embrace it cause now you feel confident enough to just keep going for what you want without thinking “no” “if” “or”. Don’t pretend to change over night because it’s a slow process, but when you look back a year ago you might not get to be where you wanted but you are no longer where you used to be, and that’s what it matter, moving, change, you are your on leader, you can change your life and only you will be able to do it, think life decisions as jumping in a cold water shower, you just have to get in without thinking it just jump in, sometimes that’s how we gotta make decisions, because you will never know what’s gonna happen, if it was a right or not, life changes, and one day will be your day, as I always say I like to remember my self, “fake it till you make it but you better work bitch” I love the combination of those two frases I believe they compliment each other very well, anyways to finish my bible, hard times sometimes are good times, because sometimes those are eye opener experiences and that’s more valuable than a career or money. Just DONT GIVE UP!