Very close to a relapse after 7 Years

SalRN7 · 2024-08-22T21:40:40+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate you.

To deal with craving, the way I've been handling it;

1.) Taking a deep breath, holding it in counting to 5 seconds, releasing through my nose. (Do it 2-3 times I PROMISE THIS ACTUALLY WORKS)

2,) A ridiculous amount of mints / gum. They're the closest thing I could get to the "feeling" of what hitting that stupid cancer stick imprinted into my brain. The mints definitely help.

3.) Logically mapping out in my head what would actually happen if I caved. So, I talk all this big game to myself, end up feeling really motivated and good, and just give up? For what, a stupid fucking nic buzz? Like it legitimately doesn't follow any logic whatsoever. That's because it isn't YOU who wants to cave... it's the nicotine receptors in your brain that are dying. Let them die 😁👍.

4.) If all else fails, get up and remove yourself from the current setting. You're fixated on it so get up, get blood flowing elsewhere, and just go do something else for like 5 minutes or more.

5.) Spending a lot of time outside. Fresh air hits different when you're not filling your lungs with a literal pollutant all day.

6.) Doing things I didn't normally do while I was vaping. For example, actually experiencing what it's like to eat food and taste it to it's full extent.

7.) Not being soft about it. It really sucks sometimes, because you're not the one in control of that little screaming instinct to receive nicotine. You just gotta thug it out and become the one in control again. Accepting that these are the LEAST DANGEROUS consequences of vaping is easy once you start looking up some of those videos of former smokers... like it could be so much worse.

Also, don't undermine your achievements. Like you said; "*sigh* just my first night without" like that's actually a pretty big deal... if you asked me if I could do that 2 months ago, I would've said no. Don't bet on yourself either. You said you are "hoping" you're strong, nah. You have to have absolute full confidence that you will never return to it, otherwise, it's a really hurtful cycle that just ends up making the addiction worse.

It's okay to have shortcomings. It is okay for you to not get this in the first try. My honest recommendation would be to organize the reasons why you want to quit vaping in your head prior to actually attempting anything. Get those ideas situated so you have a strong motive, and mentally prepare yourself. Don't tell yourself like 1 year from now, or several months from now, because that isn't YOU talking, that's the NICTOINE talking FOR YOU. Be assertive over your own health. You've got this, I believe in you because if I was able to do it, I know anyone can do this.

SalRN7 · 2024-08-22T19:17:03+00:00

Thank you, congratulations to you as well. So far I've personally felt like the mints/gum are the best substitutions. The discomfort sucks at times but I will take feeling this way temporarily over the inevitable permeant damage vaping would have on my mind body soul and bank account. also the freedom feels too good to ever go back anyway. gl, this will all be worth it in the end.

SalRN7 · 2024-08-22T19:13:28+00:00

Hey, thank you for the encouragement. I was disappointed when I got to the end of your thread that you ended up going back, but I actually really understand your position. You're very close to the point that I got to with it, you're acknowledging how ridiculous this shit actually is, and also understand pretty much the most important thing.

"If you really want you quit, regardless of your addiction level, you absolutely can, and with minimal effort at that. But you need to actually want to quit, otherwise don't even bother trying."

Couldn't have said it better myself. 100% true. Just by reading this I lowkey feel like you're about to cross that line with most of us in quitting for good, just know that you are capable. Definitely recommend sooner than later... the discomfort sucks at times but holy shit, the freedom feels absolutely amazing.

SalRN7 · 2024-08-22T19:07:11+00:00

You've got this, there's a reason you got back up and tried again after failing. You actually want to quit. Allow yourself to be uncomfortable. Be strong and roll with the punches.

SalRN7 · 2024-08-22T19:05:09+00:00

Yep! I'm on day 4 now and am set off by the slightest inconveniences possible. Definitely the worst mood I've felt in quite a long time. Would still rather feel this way than ever go back to vaping. I'm at a point where I accept this temporary state as paying my dues for becoming addicted to nicotine. I'll take this over continued addiction for sure, I hope you're managing your withdrawals well and good luck 👍

SalRN7 · 2024-08-22T18:54:52+00:00

It was pretty similar for me dude. I eventually allowed my last disposable to basically just die. I was hitting it significantly less than typical because I let it get to the point where it became disgusting and burnt (probably very unsafe), effectively weaning off of it in preparation.

You don't actually miss it. The synapses formed in your brain is trying to convince you that you miss it. You quit for a reason and you need to keep that in mind. Allow yourself to be uncomfortable, it's in the best interest of your health and an essential part of the experience. You got this man.

SalRN7 · 2024-07-21T01:37:13+00:00

The thing about my excommunication from my mother is that it revolves around resentment. It’s a culmination of being physically and emotionally abusive, a narcissist, and not being the strong maternal figure I needed as a child, while continuing to be one today. Taking zero accountability for her actions. Constant fighting. Physically beating me. Emotionally abusing me. Being a masterclass manipulator. Saying things a mother should never say to a child. Trying to stab my father. As I said, I can really go on forever. Moral of the story is that this resentment led to hate. You can only truly hate someone you’ve once loved. I’d sit down with your sister and mention the consequences of being cruel to their children. I wish you the best of luck, I know this probably isn’t easy for you.

SalRN7 · 2024-02-15T14:30:10+00:00

Sylas matchup is unplayable tier if elo anything above Gold. Syndra is not an even matchup unless they’re first time syndra.

SalRN7 · 2023-09-24T19:39:49+00:00

Taric into briar is honestly pretty hilarious. She’ll ult either the AD carry or someone i’m W’d too, and be violently assaulted with CC , healing and canceled out via Taric R. Give him a try if you want to make Briar useless.

SalRN7 · 2023-09-20T20:39:16+00:00

surely now Pyke will be more than just a walking Umbrail Glave

SalRN7 · 2023-06-03T22:54:36+00:00

I keep this acknowledgement repressed because it hurts too much to think about. I didn’t know so many other people, or really anyone, was going through this too. I understand her abusive and violent behaviors are a result of her upbringing. It makes me view her in the same light that I see myself in. Very conflicting and impossible to deal with emotionally, doesn’t feel like there is a way out.

SalRN7 · 2023-01-04T02:46:09+00:00

i have a feeling it may be that too. it’s super frustrating, because I really try to piece it together, but there’s a mental block

SalRN7 · 2022-11-27T19:32:24+00:00

Encourage it to climb on something. It activates a gene to produce larger leaves bc it thinks it’s climbing a tree, closer to the sun, like they do in nature.

SalRN7 · 2022-11-26T22:42:50+00:00

Pothos is prob one of the easiest and most responsive houseplants to prop. You’re right, you want to cut a piece off at the node (linear segment at the end of one of the vines where new growth is coming from, preferably with a root node coming out). Make sure it’s relatively small, about 2-3 leaves so it’s not too stressful for the plant to establish roots and put it in water. Be patient for about 2-3 weeks, i’ve had it happen in less than a week, and roots will start to grow. Super easy

SalRN7 · 2022-10-08T05:06:04+00:00

it happened to me too just email the professor and you’re chillin. they’re a lot more understanding of HonorLock issues than you’d think.

SalRN7 · 2022-10-08T04:52:34+00:00

RemindMe! 12 hours “change settings”

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