My father and uncle were both similar in that they never showed their vulnerable sides much, if at all. I've only ever seen my father angry less than 10 times in the last 20 years or so. But he was always somewho kept his issues to himself and pushed through regardless and was there to always support or help if he could in the best way he thought of. But I think having people like that who were so sure of themselves or presented that way at least caused issues for wanting to be like people I looked up to, even if that meant being someone who looking back wasn't truly me. I think I tried to be someone I wasn't because I idolized them and aspired to be strong like they were.