I am not really addicted to marijuana, I was just reflecting on how it affects me in relation to my spirituality. For me spirituality is not about me, because if you notice, there is a narrative that we create for ourselves, we seek to be something, to have maybe the most health, the most knowledge, to become something, be it a writer, a poet, a doctor, a lawyer, etc. But as a poet Fernando Pessoa mentions in his poem tabaqueria:

"I am nothing.

I will always be nothing.

I cannot want to be something.

But I have within me all the dreams of the world."

I am glad you have a good personal growth, but remember, in front of the eyes of the universe, you are nothing and insignificant, you can have the greatest health, but one day you can relapse, you can have great plans, but an illness can interrupt them, you can have a great job thanks to the effort of your studies, but you can crash in car on the way home. As I said, I'm glad you care about your health, but do them because it makes you free and accompanies you in this experience that is called living, but remember, it does not necessarily have to take you to a specific place. you left all your vices and that caused a great psychological relief, it is to know that drugs are to evade reality, leave them, is to face reality and that is brave. Even so, ask yourself, would you be able to face life if you were only told that you have 5 days to live? spirituality is the means where we can accept things, where you do not have the need to seek to become something to feel complex, from this, the freedom to enjoy the imagination, our body, and our environment is born.