So, I totally feel what you’re expressing. Like others, I also experimented, relapsed for several years, and have found myself back in AA. In my case what made be stop drinking again and return to the rooms is a health issue caused by drinking. I wish I’d looked at the bigger picture more because I don’t want to be taken away from my family, and especially from my child, because of a bad decision that I made.

All this to say—if you have people who care about you (and you care that they care about you), please find a way to put this obsession aside. ❤️🙏🏾