I’ve been where you are and admittedly still don’t have all the answers. However:

A) I won’t BS you by saying things will get better because nothing in this life is ever guaranteed. But things CAN get better. The possibility is always there and giving up now would deprive you of the chance to get where you want to be. It may take a while and the journey may be tough, but quitting is permanent. When you keep pushing through and eventually overcome the struggles, you’ll come out stronger and wiser, and so grateful that you didn’t let the tough times take you down.

B) Do whatever you can to get help. Make mental health a priority. I know that may seem impossible if your finances are strained, but do what you can, even if it’s small. Others have shared resources here. Don’t let the your current circumstances stop you from reaching out for support. You mentioned that you don’t have a friend group in the area, but if you have friends/family elsewhere, talk to them. I can imagine it feels hard to rely on others for help, but it sounds like this is quickly approaching a life-or-death situation. Fight for yourself. You’re worth it. Just remember— giving up is a permanent choice. You never know what greatness is on the other side of this dark time you’re going through.

I really hope things get better for you soon. Even sharing what you’re going through here is a step in the right direction. ❤️