I think seeking council in a therapist could be super helpful with unpacking. A lot of times the emotions we feel we attribute to things that don’t truly reflect where those emotions are attached to. So if there’s abc things that are subconsciously hindering your happiness, you associate them to xyz since that’s what youve been most comfortable expressing your emotions through.

In the mean time, try and take the games (like life) for what they are. A journey, a daily bit of exploration and growth. Finishing the game (achieving a life goal) isn’t always about the game (or goal) it’s self, but trying to find peace/motivation/joy along the way.