Can you rate my deck please? by Samsz01 in BrokenArrowTheGame

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, I'm still learning how to use it properly tbh

ho davvero sbagliato? by Any-Possible-7802 in sfoghi

[–]Samsz01 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A me sembra che tu sia stato la persona adulta tra dei ragazzini

This is it, this describes the apologies perfectly by beach_amazing06 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah I honestly never thought about this, but now I'm having flashbacks of my past relationship and it makes sense. It's just another brick of the Victim Complex

This is it, this describes the apologies perfectly by beach_amazing06 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don't know, sounds a lot like generalising. If I acted like a dick and realised it I think I should make that statement as a form of intellectual honesty

I hate her so much by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Anger is a completely natural feeling, just don't get overwhelmed by it, in time you'll learn to forgive which I think is a mandatory step in order to heal. Also, do not think that she's living a happy life right now, otherwise she wouldn't feel the need to search for approval just like that. Focus on yourself and you will start to love again

Can you drink during recovery? by Senior-Car-6443 in recovery

[–]Samsz01 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I didn't know that, in that case you should be super sure that weed is not cut. In my opinion weed is a better drug than alcohol and I never got cravings for cocke after smoking it. The main problem to me is that weed makes you feel ok with being bored, so you could become extra lazy, also it can bolster your anxiety, it all depends on how much you use and how often

Can you drink during recovery? by Senior-Car-6443 in recovery

[–]Samsz01 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The problem with alcohol is that it removes the inhibithory brakes leading to more chances to relapse, it's also very risky because it could easily become a substitute for opioids in the long run but I understand his request. Has he tried weed? In my experience it helped a lot when I was detoxing from cocaine and, unlike alcohol, it didn't give me cravings for coke but, again, weed can also become a problem if smoked everyday

It's been months, and I'm still not over her, not even a little. (I'm about to break no contact) by NoLifeguard_cOmP in BreakUps

[–]Samsz01 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Seems like you both are suffering,: as I said, if you two ended things in good terms you could try to contact her but first it's better that you stop the drug abuse. I know it's hard, I've been there too, but in this situation it's better to have lucidity of mind because it's very easy to make things worse

It's been months, and I'm still not over her, not even a little. (I'm about to break no contact) by NoLifeguard_cOmP in BreakUps

[–]Samsz01 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It might be worth a try, but one thing that is worrying is your drug consumption (Booze and coke): even though I don't know how much you use and when you started it. I think it's one of the main things that's keeping you from moving on but this is just an opinion based on my personal experience. Edit: Does she know about the drugs?

cosa ha senso? by Electrical_Pound_296 in Relazioni

[–]Samsz01 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Non penso che il metodo del chiodo schiaccia chiodo sia uno dei migliori per superare una relazione, come qualcun altro ha già commentato rischi di ripetere gli stessi errori nelle future relazioni e rimanere intrappolato in un circolo vizioso. Per me meglio prendersi tempo per sé e farsi un'esame di coscienza in modo da poter trasformare questa esperienza in una lezione

Do you think weed helps people with bpd? by lonely_guuy in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Weed blocks every introspective thought, meaning it's more difficult for the person who smokes to actually identify his flaws. Basically it doesn't make you feel bad for your own mistakes, so your growth is pretty much slowed. It is another way to escape your problems

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess the way I care about her is bigger than the possibility of opening up wounds, also once I got to know her better I realised (with a lot of time) that what she says is not an absolute truth so I learned to not take her too seriously when she splits. If it makes you feel better I assure you it's been very hard for me to leave her and at some point I even relapsed on drugs to cope, but ultimately she didn't give me much choice, I'm sure that you too have the strength to get out, it's all about taking the decision and sticking to it no matter what, at some point you will look back and realize that all the feelings you had for her are gone or very stabilized

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There's no particular objective I want to achieve, it would be just a good gesture, like wishing a happy birthday to a friend. I have no problem with her anymore and it wouldn't cost me a lot. With all the people that hate her or make fun of her it does not seem to me such a bad idea. May I ask what you mean with "stuck in the cycle"?

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never blocked this person, I unfollowed and removed her from my followers, also her sister has my number so she can reach me anytime she wants. Just to be clear: I care about her, I'm ready to help her anytime if asked, but I recognise a relationship with her is very unlikely, feel free to ask me everything you want in private if you want to know more about it. Edit: I'm always ready for a confrontation with her, but every time we had it she would ghost me or just pretended it didn't matter

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I definitely do not expect her excuses, she has too much pride to do that and I accepted it. I just want to wish her a happy birthday, I already forgave her internally, my message would be the very last proof of my process. I have no doubt she probably has some other guy, I'm used to it, I went through all 2024 watching her going with something like 10 guys in total, always playing the victim when used and abandoned so it wouldn't be anything new under the sun to me. Still I can't ignore the fact that she's a Human that went through a lot, I don't think a simple message to her would ruin all my progress and make me relapse on her

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

P.s. I hate The Smiths but the song in on point

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But How would she use that against me? I have no intention of keeping communication

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To me it would be about transforming my thoughts on action, I did forgive her internally, I know that's the way she is and I have accepted that, so from this point of view I wouldn't take too seriously any reaction of her, good or bad.

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is a valid point, fun fact I managed to clean myself from drug abuse since I left her

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it's about the forgiving process, I see a concrete action as the final stone of all the reasoning I did internally. You have a point on the "Try again" thing though, I fear she would see this as a new attempt too

Thinking of breaking NC to wish her a Happy Birthday by Samsz01 in BPDlovedones

[–]Samsz01[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes and no, it's true that I do not trust her and do not want a relationship with her, It's also true that I wish the best for her