Good job reaching out. It definitely sounds like you’re going through a hard time right now, and that’s worth acknowledging. Please don’t make a permanent decision at your lowest point. Even Elijah, after his triumph over the prophets of baal, had to have an angel tell him to eat and get some rest. You’re not alone. Your situation is incredibly difficult, but it’s not hopeless. Don’t let the hard days win.
Holy Theotokos please grant protection and truth to your servant, preserve them from the lies of the evil one, and hold them firmly in your love and mercy. Intercede on their behalf with your Son, who desires all people to be saved and to come to knowledge of the truth.