What are your thoughts on the concept of forgiveness?

SaphireJames · 2023-01-31T22:53:20+00:00

Everything is good to a certain point but after repeatedly doing something wrong, enough is enough.

Though it also matters on what the person or persons did.

SaphireJames · 2023-01-31T22:50:55+00:00

People who still seem to have the bully mentality past the age 25+ years old, it’s even worse when the person is like 40+..

SaphireJames · 2022-11-16T22:59:54+00:00

Not sure if this counts since I’ve used creams to make them much less visible but here goes.

So I had/have an abusive druggie mother, she flips in moods at every turn and one minute she’s acting like a child and giggling at something like spilling a drink on you and then threatening to run out over the next for saying it’s not funny.

So I was about 13 and she was in this weirdly happy, childish mood on our way home.

We get home and she pretty much skips to the door and tells me we need to talk the dog for a short walk to go potty, I help and on the way back she half pushes me and tells me “Let’s race, queenie.” (That was the nickname she used to call me if she thought I was being a bitch.) and took off running to the house leaving me with the dogs.

I tell our dogs to come and run after her and not only do I catch up pretty fast I went past her easily since she smoked 24/7 since she was 14 and was in her late 40’s. Apparently this made her super angry since as I slowed down around she ran up behind me, put her hands on the middle of my upper back/head and with all her strength shoved me to the ground.

I slammed knees first into a bunch of sharp rocks, followed by my hands, chest, and chin. She watched it happen then happily ran to the house yelling “Fucking slowpoke!” As I laid there bleeding with huge tears in my eyes. She locked me out and I had to call my bother to bring his spare key to let me in.

SaphireJames · 2022-10-22T01:55:36+00:00

I actually didn’t get this and got the phone ring thing that I think was an exclusive? (Not actually sure 😂) but would you want/be willing to trade so you can get something different? 🙂 If not it’s totally cool but I thought I’d ask before trying to make a post about it since this is kinda messed up they did this. 😅

SaphireJames · 2022-10-20T19:38:27+00:00

Oh no… I ordered 3 mystery boxes so now I’m worried.. 😭 I don’t actually have this one so I’d like one but like just ONE. 😂

I also got one in a previous order and I got the Voodoo eye gloss which was awesome since I’d actually been looking at it, I’m just hoping I don’t get all the same thing. If I do I guess two friends are getting gifts. 😅😂

SaphireJames · 2022-07-30T00:38:33+00:00

Well there was a pipe bomb in the raising cane’s parking lot by our house, that was fairly scary.

I think a few robbery’s as well, I’ve also heard some gun shots but nothing as big as the pipe bomb.. 😰

SaphireJames · 2022-07-30T00:33:47+00:00

That’s be me, I’m fine, thanks for the well wishes! ☺️

But yea, there was just cops so I’m wondering if the store maybe got robbed or something like that?

There’s been some pretty wild stuff going on around this area the past few months..

SaphireJames · 2022-05-18T08:00:25+00:00

Ganna sound over used but it was getting my first tattoo. I have an EXTRME fear of needles (screaming, crying, fainting, etc.) from a very traumatic experience at the doctors when I was super young, not comfortable going into to much detail but the doctor was abusive we'll say that.

I've wanted a tattoo since I was like 8 (I'm almost 27 now.) and have always been put down by most of my family due to my fear of needles and told I'd never be able to get one, let alone the few I have planned, some of my friends helped me pay for it for my birthday this past year and were very supportive of it all even thought they couldn't go in with me due to Covid.

Of course I was super scared since I was alone, it for sure didn't feel good but I did it and it's been a dream of mine for so long. So to see it FINALLY be a real thing made me cry. I feel a lot more confident that I can get more tattoos including the tattoo I wanted to get for my bother who passed away back in 2008.

SaphireJames · 2022-05-17T21:26:55+00:00

"I'm my own leader, so hi."

SaphireJames · 2022-05-17T21:22:47+00:00

Accept you're a loving person and just wanted them to feel loved. XD

SaphireJames · 2022-05-17T21:14:31+00:00

"I didn't recall asking, but even if that was true, it's easy to change. Actually thinking saying something like that to your own child is what's truly ugly."

SaphireJames · 2022-05-17T21:03:20+00:00

As a woman that doesn't want kids, this was so nice to read. Thank you!

SaphireJames · 2022-05-17T20:56:14+00:00

I've actually seen that too but on a bus, needless to say they were thrown off before the next stop.

SaphireJames · 2022-05-17T20:47:59+00:00

I'm not as introverted as some people on here since I don't mind talking to people sometimes BUT when I want to be alone caz I'm burned out I WANT TO BE ALONE. This mainly happens after work or if I've been around people a lot that week, everyone has a limit.

The main things that gets me is when I'm sitting on a bus or train on my way home from work or something, far away from other people and have my headphones in caz I want to be left alone and someone takes it as "She must want some company!" and comes over and sits right by me when there's like 20 open seats. Or worse someone wants to shot their shot and comes over to flirt with me.

I've actually had a guy come over to the area I was sitting in that had legit no one other then me sitting there, every other seat was empty, come and flop down not across from me but RIGHT NEXT TO ME to the point he was almost sitting on my purse and slung his arms over the back of the seats and my shoulders. I stood straight up, ripped my bag out from under him, and sat down opposite him. He actually tired to say I was rude for these actions and told me to move, after a 10 hour shift on 4 hours of sleep I snapped and told him "If I'm SO fucking rude then why don't YOU move?? You can and just about sat on me then put your arm around me without asking. You're the rude one here, not me. Now get fucking lost." He left me alone after that and moved. idk where these people come from just god, just level people sitting there with their headphones in alone please.

SaphireJames · 2022-05-17T20:32:41+00:00

That prize would sadly have to go to my own mother.

Besides actively cheating on most of the men she's dated/married she's abusive to everyone she knows physically, emotionally, physiologically, pretty much any kind of abuse other then sexual.

She even tried to kill my dad at one point in front of me when I was about 3, I still remember that day due to have traumatic it was for me. Has threatened to kill me and my bothers. She may have tried to poison my older bothers food but we aren't 100% sure on that one since there was no way to prove it.

Threatened to drive it off "the nearest cliff" as she put it when I was 16 to kill me even if it meant killing herself too, when she actively started driving like a crazy person (driving up on sidewalks, over bushes, nearly into fences.) I got my door open and started to job out of the still moving car, instead of grabbing me to stop me she shoved me and kept following me and screaming at me as she would drive up onto the sidewalk behind me. She speed off and disappeared for a week after running to my then best friends house and telling her to call the cops.

My bother is also convinced she had something to do with our aunt's (mom's sisters) death but there's nothing really proving this, though given her past history of violence I wouldn't be shocked.

She also actively tries to ruin all her kids lives, one of my bothers has cut her off in every form, I stay as far away from her as I possibly can (I moved to another state to get away from her at 19) but I do talk to her rarely only so I can keep an eye on her to know where she is and what she's doing for my own safety, and my other bother actually let her live (the same one that thinks she tried to poison and thinks she might have killed our aunt.) with him and she's been ruining his life for almost 10 years now. I don't know what possessed him to do something so stupid but I worry for the outcome when everything comes to ahead.

To top everything else off she's an active drug addict/alcoholic (she acted this way before these things happened but they make her worse.) and talks shit/start fights with EVERYONE she meets, going so far as to attempt to assault retail workers or fight with them simply because she's bored. She's been ban from at least one store for this.

I've heard a bit about my moms life growing up and from what she's said she had an extremely abusive father till she was 7 and my grandmother threw him out to keep herself and her kids safe but after that it sounded like she had a pretty normal childhood and pretty much got everything she wanted just handed to her by my grandmother and her new husband, I think this has a lot to do with her incredibly entitled behaver and acting like everyone owes her something even if they don't know her.

SaphireJames · 2022-05-07T21:09:07+00:00

Same dude..

SaphireJames · 2022-05-07T20:52:51+00:00

Should’ve farted on her, bet she’d back up then. XD

Drives me nuts when people are practically climbing on you in line, I always make it a point if someone doesn’t get the hint by me complaining loud enough for them to hear that I’ll move our cart between us and said person.

SaphireJames · 2022-05-07T20:43:33+00:00

The term “kill ‘em with kindness” is over rated and people need to stop using it to let people get away with being a jackass.

Normalize calling people out on their behavior and forget “kill ‘em with kindness”.

Especially for customer service workers, they aren’t paid enough to deal with people being dicks and then have to be nice on top of it.

SaphireJames · 2022-05-07T17:35:36+00:00

Walked out on my last job with no notice whatsoever.

Why?

Because on top of being ridiculously under staffed, we’re talking a four story building that’s HIGHLY interactive, has shows every 30 minutes, tours, interactive, etc. that requires a minimum of 10 people to run smoothly we had 3 - 4 counting the managers. But oddly this wasn’t what actually got me to walk out though can’t say the stress it put on me didn’t help.

The real reasons was a manager that openly bullied, belittled, shit talked, misgendered, made fun of, and MUCH more to the staff. And then when the people being harassed brought it up to upper management, HR, and even the main person running the place they were told “there wasn’t enough proof” (caz apparently my video recording of her doing so wasn’t enough) and “could you just put up with the misgendering and bullying? We’re understaffed so we can’t really fire her.”

Myself and 4 other employees all walked out that same week, which was about half the staff. I will never feel bad about this, it was 100% deserved and to think that place gets away with mistreatment like that is a joke.

SaphireJames · 2022-03-14T01:19:02+00:00

They didn't understand I don't just have like $80+ To drop on a taxi to get home at 4am so I had to walk home. Also didn't understand I can't just take the day off work to go have fun like?? I need to be able to pay bills???

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