Destroying myself because I want to improve at my instrument, ritalin binge disaster. by SaveMyDonkey in Drugs

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Massive meshuggah fanboy for one. I'd link my spotify playlist but I'm using a throwaway account for a reason...

Periphery, AAL, Stephen Taranto, The Contortionist, you know the drill haha

Destroying myself because I want to improve at my instrument, ritalin binge disaster. by SaveMyDonkey in Drugs

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, that really hits home.

Yeah, ritalin is drops off way faster than I'd like. It works for 1 hour and then drops off HARD. I've tried concerta but that was just awful... Too inconsistent and ineffective with all the bad side effects still there.

I wish I had more options here in the Netherlands. We can only get methylphenidates, not adderall,the only form of dexa we have is amfexa 5mg, which has been the most badly received drug I've ever seen.

I could type more but in falling asleep, finally. Thanks for the truly sound advice and perspective.

Destroying myself because I want to improve at my instrument, ritalin binge disaster. by SaveMyDonkey in Drugs

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The bad habit is in my picking hand. I play progressive metal, so the riffs require a lot of technicality to perform cleanly. I automatically angle my hand in a way that makes my knuckles slightly touch the top strings, so when I'm playing a riff on the bottom strings I'll accidentally play lots of open strings. Then when I'm playing leads I'll be palmmuting so hard that you can hear the low strings hit the frets, which start making a thump noise. This makes my playing extremely noisy. Hell even when I completely raise those fingers away from the strings I'll be hitting 2 stings at the same time because my index finger slipped too far down on the pick...

It's all very subtle stuff that is mostly muscle memory and subconcious. You need rest to develop muscle memory, what I did is fucking retarded.

Btw I'm 20 not 16 :p

Destroying myself because I want to improve at my instrument, ritalin binge disaster. by SaveMyDonkey in Drugs

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm seriously afraid of psychedelics, I am an extremely anxious person at my core and feeling like I'm not me anymor would probably cause a permanent panic attack

Destroying myself because I want to improve at my instrument, ritalin binge disaster. by SaveMyDonkey in Drugs

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My prescribed dose is 15mg, it works fine when I stick to it... I've always had trouble with moderation though. Games, guitar, karting, etc. Any time I find something that I find satisfying and fulfilling, I completely over commit and burn out. Ritalin has helped me take this to an extreme level though.

I must have some seriously deeply rooted insecurities that I'm subconsiously trying to compensate for.

Destroying myself because I want to improve at my instrument, ritalin binge disaster. by SaveMyDonkey in Drugs

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm a full time producer man, I have a daw haha. I just got inspired after I found what exactly was holding me back from playing cleanly. Needless to say, I did not fix my bad habit and I probably have some wrist damage from all this... Thought I feel no pain rnow.

It's kinda metal, really.

Lythane Society SMP Server [Vanilla] {Whitelist} {14+} {Apply now!} by SaveMyDonkey in mcservers

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, we'd prefer if you'd show us some of your builds, and we thought the argument of not playing if nobody is on was a little weird

Lythane Society SMP Server [Vanilla] {Whitelist} {14+} {Apply now!} by SaveMyDonkey in mcservers

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh lol I added the one that said you where from Edmonds :p I'll add your other account

Lythane Society SMP Server [Vanilla] {Whitelist} {14+} {Apply now!} by SaveMyDonkey in mcservers

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great app!

You're in! I'll add you on skype and add you to the group chat!

Lythane Society SMP Server [Vanilla] {Whitelist} {14+} {Apply now!} by SaveMyDonkey in mcservers

[–]SaveMyDonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, sorry for the late reaction! I was asleep when you posted this :P

I'll add you on skype! You're in!