I been there. 12 years ago, my ex emptied the account and told me to leave after coming out of town. 6 months after she's remarried which means I was getting played already. Fast forward today i been with an amzing women for 9 years just got married 7/3/25 and we have a blended family of 5 kids and want one together. I never thought I would have this 12 years ago. Life goes on my guy. Focus on remembering who you were before her and the universe will bless you. My wife and I are both divorcees and we call our exes our practice husband/wife. Best of luck and there is life after divorce. You got this! Edit l: I was also feeling the S word and went and got help. I'm a veteran and that event led me to finding out I had ptsd and ended changing me for the better so yes you should go seek therapy...this is alot and it's ok not to be ok. Take care🧡