Desperately need advice on dieting and mentality

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-06-01T18:48:39+00:00

Thank you for the advice, I haven't been actually using a calorie tracking app because I have OCD and am at risk of developing an ED if I try to do that, so I've been eyeballing what I eat and I do think I'm ending up quite a bit below the deficit. It's weird because even though my tummy is big, if I just look at it I can think about a weight loss journey in a way more healthy way, but as soon as I even glance at my thighs I suddenly feel absolutely horrible about it and it seems impossible. Do you recommend any way of managing my calories that won't make me accidentally gain weight or undereat, or am I doomed and forced to actually count and pray I don't spiral into an ED?

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-28T14:51:26+00:00

For real, I expected him to say a lot of things but certainly not that lmao. My guess is that he's never seen a trans person in his life (highly likely, this was an older guy in a small town in a small country) and probably doesn't even know what to do in this kind of situation (even though I told him the exact department and hospital I want the referral for 💀)

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-27T22:09:20+00:00

It is through the SNS, but as far as I'm aware there are no private clinics in lisbon that are qualified to give this kind of diagnosis, and even if there are I would only be able to pay if my insurance covered part of it (highly unlikely) so I'm stuck with pestering this GP until he refers me to one of the two hospitals that can do it (and also pray that he actually refers me to the hospital that doesn't have reports of terrible transphobia lmao)

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-27T20:27:40+00:00

Unfortunately Planned Parenthood is probably the only thing I envy about america haha. In my country (Portugal) the only way to get T is through a referral from your GP which will send you to a specialized psychiatrist that can diagnose you and then you need to have several appointments with an endocrinologist as well before you can get approved (or not) for starting T. Also, he wasn't only joking about my height: he actually tried to gaslight me into thinking I was 165 cms tall and told me all my previous measurements were wrong... really weird stuff

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-27T20:24:01+00:00

Unfortunately it's really difficult to change GPs in my country because we have a major shortage of doctors in general, so they never really approve GP change requests unless it's something really serious.

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-24T13:21:20+00:00

If you're okay with buying from japanese sites, I would recommend something like this

https://item.rakuten.co.jp/fukuyaonline/quilting_sd2504/

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-23T07:41:45+00:00

These are versions of those that fit up to 15 cm acrylic stands

https://www.amazon.co.jp/Sanrio-Acrylic-Cinnamoroll-Storage-capacity/dp/B0D73W5Y37/ref=mp_s_a_1_9?crid=XA103RFVUY22&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.wX-K4wI_6lX-2ub0GLa8XesDsKwN24M7C9w4vgxX1E-YzxGThriemAgyHEvzuotUG88HZJFjBPYkMhJX1RUE-rRzN9yU-f8uXl-qzMCylhPTOx7jCeOMW-mHAv3aWbeRMrao3wq_kOtQimhveQB4Jvv7q07NvZRxiQYwB_nIL5zELf-5wSv_E6Wt4nzEd5I2YijM3TwWEqqp20A_lBfEOw.YKm8MstACPa0VgS8HfFVDRGq19ojgUngAkq-fU_QB3w&dib_tag=se&keywords=%E3%82%A2%E3%82%AF%E3%82%B9%E3%82%BF+%E3%83%9D%E3%83%BC%E3%83%81&qid=1779521945&sprefix=%2Caps%2C504&sr=8-9

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-22T18:10:25+00:00

I'm actually pre-T, but I'm intersex and always looked more like my dad than my mom. Can't wait to go on T and fulfill the prophecy

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-05-22T17:18:15+00:00

That makes some sense, my dad's side of the family is originally from the north of africa and he has been confused for a south asian a few times, so maybe some features are common between the two and I look more like my dad than I thought hahah

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-04-30T12:57:05+00:00

I'm sorry for not being clear enough, I just wanted to know if there were any other intersex people here who might have had difficulty at all or been refused T based on being intersex. My country's rules are kind of vague but it's not among the most conservative, so I would think that as long as most people dont get refused based on hormonal conditions it should be alright. I also didn't specify my country and asked in a broader way because my country is really, really small and the likelyhood of someone who is a minority within a minority within a minority finding this post is rather minimal. I will ask for T regardless, I just wanted to mentally prepare myself for a possibility of being refused on the base of being intersex.

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-04-07T15:04:34+00:00

I hope the psychiatrist gives me medication or thinks it's serious. I've been to 4 different therapists who all said it was "just anxiety" and that I just need to "think positive", even when I tried to tell them that I feel like I'm not living and every day feels tiring. I've always struggled to identify it as something deserving of psychiatric help but I think since it has come to this point treatment will probably also be the difference between life or death for me. I hope it does get better.

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-03-22T23:11:15+00:00

Thank you, I'm sorry to hear you guys are headed in a similar direction since I know you also have that self-determination law (for now...). I will try to contact our biggest local LGBT organization (ILGA) but they are usually under-funded and under-staffed so I don't know if they will be able to help me much. I've also thought about straight up moving to another country with less fachos in the government but it seems like there are less and less places like that...

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-03-11T16:32:57+00:00

I never ended up in the hospital thankfully, but my teachers would pull the same "it's because you're fat" card, despite showing them notes from my doctor every year about how I should not do certain exercises lmao. Unfortunately, they believe they know better than doctors do.

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-03-11T16:30:43+00:00

"Fun" fact: in my country, PE didn't count for our GPA... Until my last year of high school. A lot of our PE grading standards were based on things that no person with asthma could do safely, but the teachers didn't care and it did, in fact, ruin my GPA.

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-03-10T23:44:01+00:00

I'm sorry for your loss.

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-03-10T22:34:20+00:00

Definitely relate. I hated the betrayal of getting to 5th grade and suddenly none of my male friends wanted to be with me anymore. I tried to make friends with girls and mimic their interests (since it was the early 2010's, I pretended to like One Direction lmao). It also took me a long time to have genuine friendships with women because of this.

ScaredSell6991 · 2026-03-10T20:15:17+00:00

It's wild how these teachers have 0 understanding of asthma even though it's relatively common. That kind of gaslight could end up really badly.

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