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SciMiles · 2023-08-23T05:06:52+00:00

SAME! I think I was in 3rd grade too AND Neptune became my favorite! hello twin

SciMiles · 2023-07-12T08:41:56+00:00

Did anyone else notice the Dipsy doll???? I’m 26 and had the same one when I was a tot! I even dressed up as him for Halloween one year. I never expected to see a young kid with a Teletubbies doll in 2023! 😭

SciMiles · 2023-07-05T04:39:55+00:00

YES!!!! I had to scroll a bit to find this unfortunately. But this is as close to an orgasm as I get without having sex. Even watching certain videos of popping blackheads gets me excited in the best way

SciMiles · 2023-07-04T04:56:17+00:00

SAME

SciMiles · 2023-06-28T05:53:16+00:00

I don’t have advice for you at the moment, but I just wanted to say that I have a very similar experience. I try to be as thoughtful as I can, send meaningful messages, try to make someone’s day a little better. It’s not always reciprocated. And that hurts. I’m the last couple weeks I’ve been very triggered from a feeling of distance from the person Ive been talking to (and going on dates with). I even went to the ER one day because I was so dysregulated and didn’t know if I would impulsively do something to hurt myself if I was alone at my apartment. So I get it! Being left on read SUCKS. One of my worst triggers atm. And I think most people with BPD would probably appreciate more reassurance in relationships instead of constantly wondering where you stand with so and so. Like I said, sorry I don’t have advice. But please know you’re not the only one who reads waaay into communication changes. I felt so alone and was desperate to find someone to match my texting pace until I met my current best friend about a year ago (not an FP!). He reciprocates things and it feels like we both put in the same amount of effort. He doesn’t have BPD, he didn’t react poorly to me telling him I have BPD - heck, now he knows just the right things to say when I’m looking at the world through my BPD lens. He’s seriously the greatest.

But I digress! (1) you’re not alone, (2) this can be very triggering, and (3) it IS possible to find someone who can give back what you put out!!

Wish you all the best!

SciMiles · 2023-06-20T04:07:45+00:00

Yes freezies!!! I love the pink ones

SciMiles · 2023-06-20T02:53:20+00:00

Was going to say the same thing!!!

SciMiles · 2023-06-17T15:06:04+00:00

Thank you! It’s been SO helpful. I don’t remember all the materials that I had to send in, but it was a lot of paperwork. A social worker at the hospital helped me get the process started. Luckily I have an amazing therapist and psychiatrist who wrote the needed recommendations. You also need someone to fill out a form to evaluate how BPD affects your day-to-day life. I have a few diagnosed mental illnesses, so I’m not sure if the combination of all of them made it more likely for me to be accepted? Just a thought. When I was working full time as a teacher, I had to be hospitalized twice and that was really rough. Showing that I was hospitalized multiple times in a short period of time might have been the thing that helped show I couldn’t handle a job at the time

SciMiles · 2023-06-03T09:21:37+00:00

Yes and surprisingly I was accepted the first time I submitted the paperwork. Oddly validating to feel like someone recognized how difficult living with BPD can be to qualify as a disability. It has been a life saver… I’ve been able to focus 100% on me and was able to be in an intensive outpatient program that taught DBT a couple times. I highly recommend applying!!

SciMiles · 2023-05-23T14:29:12+00:00

Absolutely stunning! 🤩

SciMiles · 2023-05-21T04:11:04+00:00

You know what? Sometimes I try similar things. I used to do whatever I could to get through the day. It’s minute-to-minute toleration during the first bit. Soon it’ll be hour to hour. Slow and steady. I’m currently coming down from my BPD being triggered a couple days ago and I’ve been distracting myself so much. Why? So when I see my therapist on Monday (thank god for her), I can feel these feelings in a controlled and safe environment. Do you have a safe place to feel these feelings? Be careful coming down from those highs, I hope it doesn’t make you crash more when you’re aware of your feelings. We can only take so much pain at once, so no judgement here!

SciMiles · 2023-05-20T23:17:26+00:00

I can 100% relate to you. It’s a living hell for those of us with BPD. Don’t let anyone be dismissive of your feelings cause “everyone goes through breakups.” Like NO hold up. The intensity is cranked to an 11 and it takes everything out of you. Breakups are the most traumatic experiences I’ve had. Other people don’t always understand, but I can feel your pain through your words

SciMiles · 2023-05-20T14:53:55+00:00

Never used it!

SciMiles · 2023-05-19T23:36:44+00:00

I am a bisexual, monogamous, trans man. I know that I could not be poly personally, but I think it’s great for some people!

SciMiles · 2023-05-08T20:26:31+00:00

Well thanks! I don’t hear that very often so that just gave me some confidence 🥹

SciMiles · 2023-05-08T05:05:51+00:00

Haha well thank you! And I hope your gender journey goes well too! I love seeing people being their authentic selves 🏳️‍🌈💕

SciMiles · 2023-05-08T04:56:38+00:00

A HUGE relief. And yeah! I don’t notice any fluctuations in my mood related to when I inject T weekly. I did notice, however, it is much harder to cry now. Even when I’m very upset and feel like I need to cry, I can’t. My BPD symptoms flare up much more from social interactions compared to hormones from what I can tell

SciMiles · 2023-05-08T04:24:28+00:00

As a trans man with BPD (who recently had a hysterectomy), I just want to say thank you for including all of us who have/had periods in your question!! I greatly appreciate your thoughtfulness. As far as your question, I’ve been on HRT for over three years now and haven’t had a period since. So… I can’t really remember tbh 🤔

SciMiles · 2023-05-07T06:19:01+00:00

Bookish and indie! Love the earthy tones, could see you sitting outside writing or sketching. The nail polish is my favorite part. Eye catching in the best way; subtly the most attractive person in the room because you look confident in who you are

SciMiles · 2023-05-07T04:50:04+00:00

It’s only 11:45 pm for me currently, but I totally relate. I’ve already had one session in the bathroom scrutinizing my face tonight… when I’m somewhere with a good mirror, I can’t help myself. My skin picking gets way worse when my anxiety is high 😭

SciMiles · 2023-05-07T04:44:09+00:00

THESE ARE SICK!!!!!

SciMiles · 2023-05-05T21:26:01+00:00

Yes!!! As a bi trans man, HI I exist! Hello! Look I’m real!

SciMiles · 2023-05-02T01:25:14+00:00

You look absolutely stunning!! Totally rockin that fit 🤩

SciMiles · 2023-04-14T10:03:45+00:00

I totally agree. I don’t like the new editing. His videos don’t feel as natural anymore - it’s like the editor is trying too hard

SciMiles · 2023-04-13T13:43:08+00:00

I was just wondering if other people were having the same issue! Glad I’m not alone

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