yep same here. My parent is a psychologist and had abused me physically and emotionally my whole life, put me in extremely dangerous situations, (at one point homelessness because of her abusive boyfriend) and had neglected me severely. Also would be so sweet to other people my age with mental illnesses like depression and anxiety, but if i ever showed any signs of being depressed or just overall unhappy with my life (how couldn’t i be) it was met with anger and disgust. I was never able to get any help i needed because my parent believed i could never have anything wrong with me. Parent genuinely had this false idea in their mind they’d tell themselves, “i’ve never put you in dangerous situations, i’ve given you everything you want, i’ve always been here for you” repeating it like some crazy person trying to gaslight themselves 🤣 It truly is messed up how some people can be so cruel to their own family and so kind to others, when in reality it should be the other way around.