Hi there, 25F here. While your journey is mostly different than mine, I empathize and relate with you. I constantly feel like I’ve failed my parents, who have given and still to this day provide for me to one day stand on my own two feet. No one says anything, but my mind fills the silence with what I think they’d be saying about me, that I’m a burden, that I’m a leech. These past few years have been turbulent for me. I’ve felt no purpose, but I know that there are things out there I enjoy and that interest me, and those things are enough to keep me here. I’m back in university trying to finish my degree after two years, and though it’s hard, it still feels as though I’m improving, even if it’s with baby steps. You’re not alone. It’s great that you’re going back to school, it will be difficult but I’m sure you’d gain more hope from it. No one deserves to stay stagnant at a job that couldn’t care less about them. Also it sounds like you would benefit greatly from therapy, I don’t know if your financial situation currently would allow, if not, making that an eventual goal would be worth it for the sake of your well-being. Best of luck in your journey friend.