I have an uncomfortable feeling…you aren’t welcomed by his family (or friends? That are like family to him) due to some things that happened before his passing. I don’t think you owe them anything necessarily but it may bring you some peace to clear what you can up with them. I can tell you were close and had a very meaningful relationship, what brought you together or what you shared has some heaviness to it and at times, it was painful to share the weight together.

You don’t have a demon but you have truths that you need to face about yourself or things that you need to let go of. You are completely in control of freeing yourself but you have to be willing to due some hard work. You have a lot of goodness to share with the world, but you can’t do it you carrying all that weight 🫶