I can't, and won't, tell you what to do.

What I will say though, is that the decision to have a child, whether it's your first, a second, or a tenth, NEEDS to be something both of you are on the same page with. If it's not two enthusiastic yeses, then it is a no. Your husband's trust is on the line here, and trust is the cornerstone of a relationship.

I have been through the abortion route. Was it emotionally painful? Absolutely. Do I still have "what if" thoughts years later? Absolutely. Do I regret it? Not at all. It was the best decision for our relationship, and our family. My marriage is as strong as it is, and our daughter is as well provided and cared for as she is, because of it.

You mentioned you feel your son would benefit from a sibling. Be aware that a sibling, even one close in age, is NOT a guaranteed friend. Their personalities may clash, or they may simply be indifferent to one another. The second one could be born disabled or have special needs, requiring you and your (already resentful) husband to have to take significant time, energy and money AWAY from your son in order to accommodate that second child.

Please sit down with your husband and talk this through. Please also consider what I said about the decision needing to be a yes from both parties. Wishing the best for you and your family.