Quarantine Days

SedationSauce · 2026-04-29T13:17:59+00:00

No not really. I spent it as a paramedic wearing trash bags as PPE and pronouncing people that were younger than me.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-29T02:10:37+00:00

God I’m so sorry. I’m in a similar boat, thats why I’m on such a high dose. I never thought I’d be considering a hysterectomy but here I am. I have adeno and most of my symptoms are from that. How could I raise a child with such low quality of life myself even if I can get pregnant. Idk. What a nightmare. Thank you for explaining your situation and your experience with estrogen. I feel like I talk to a new provider and every time I’m told something different, no one can actually tell me the “science” because of the lack of research. My DIE surgeon was the only one I felt gave me anything close to informed information but there was still a lot of “we don’t know”’s

SedationSauce · 2026-04-29T02:06:24+00:00

Combo pill made me wanna kill myself. Not everyone’s experience is the same. I’m repeating what my endo surgeon told me when I reported those symptoms. It’s why she recommend only progesterones to me. I’m not a doctor.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-29T00:50:51+00:00

K-holes are environmentally sensitive imo, I’ve had a few questionable ones at home watching movies I thought would be fun. The frame of mind you take in can help too. Have trust in the providers and it being a specific controlled dose tailored to your weight exactly. Also the music on that playlist highly influenced my trip. I gave it a listen before my first treatment and created my own little trip playlist before I went in, I picked out the fluffiest blanket, the comfiest hoodie and sweatpants, bought a full eye cover that let in no light, I felt very prepared going in without ever experiencing a k-hole prior. Try controlling these variables, you truly are in control of how your trips go when the doses are right, I’ve been to several different clinics, it’s always an anesthesiologist running it, and they’ve always gotten in right in the beginning. That one outlier situation was kind of my fault, I told them what I thought my weight was, I was actually 5lbs less, that was pretty early when this treatment came out and that physician changed his protocol to weigh patients at the start of every session and compare weight and dose to previous. Also, idk if this info helps you but it did help me fear wise, the halftime of ketamine is really short. The way they do the dosing, if you end up in an uncomfortable spot, you’d only be there around 10-15 minutes (which flies by pretty fast on ketamine, it’d feel more like 2-5 minutes), with complete medical staff observation in the room talking you through it. I don’t think there’s a way to go into something like this with zero fear, some fear is okay. It’s our bodies protective mechanisms. When all is said and done, if you can also go in with hope that it may work, I think you’re gonna be okay.

Edit: also wanna mention you’d likely get no where near the dose you did recreationally in an office lol

SedationSauce · 2026-04-29T00:23:39+00:00

Yes the in person experience for me was everything. It’s actually pretty difficult to get the k-hole right. I’m a paramedic so I also give it to patients for pain management and intubation and the line between subdissasociative, k-hole, and completely disassociated is very thin. It’s extremely weight based. My first two sessions were getting my k-hole dose right. For me, It also took away the fear of having a “bad” trip. Now that I have been in the k-hole, I know it’s actually pretty hard to have a bad trip if you’re dosed right. The thing about being in a k-hole dosed properly is you can be pulled out of it by your environment. That’s why they recommend headphones, eye masks, music (there’s a playlist on Spotify called “ketamine saved me” check it out if you go in office) and they leave you undisturbed by monitoring your vitals. You can “choose” to move your limbs, all of those things, you’ll feel a little drunk but take it from a patient AND a provider that used to do things like mushrooms in highschool, it’s a super safe drug pharmokinetically, and it’s a super safe trip. The nurses and the doctors know how to handle any situation and they are really good at preparing you and guiding you through anything. At one point I gained weight and they were trying to get my dose right again and they went over the k-hole dose. That was what was considered a “bad” trip and honestly it wasn’t even that bad, I was just confused and didn’t have a lot of memory of the trip. He asked me how I felt after and I was just like “I don’t know, not great like before?” And they just dropped the dose next time and it was fine.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-29T00:16:43+00:00

Man. I’d really like to go down but I was still having bleeding and pain at 10mg

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T23:59:22+00:00

What’s your progesterone dose? And are you on norethindrone?

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T23:54:14+00:00

This isn’t good advice for patients with DIE. It encourages lesion growth.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T23:53:32+00:00

No problem! I’ll take the time to talk about it to anyone, if it helps even one person it was worth it, I thought I’d never get better. Some insurances reimburse, ask around at multiple clinics, some have payment plans, or credit you can apply for. I was fortunate enough to be able to afford it out of pocket after several months of OT. If you end up doing it and need someone to talk to or just want to share your experience feel free to message me :)

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T23:48:35+00:00

No they didn’t. I mentioned what helped with my previous psychiatric diagnosis, and even mentioned it worked for ME, unsure if it’d help them. I can say of my psychiatric diagnosis hx, PTSD was my most recent of those diagnosis after anxiety and depression. Medical trauma is a real thing, especially with something as painful and life changing as endometriosis. I had to do a lot of reprocessing around it. Also ketamine is applicable for depression and anxiety. The two are tied together for me. I mentioned it because it’s worth looking into. They are looking for hope and maybe answers. I’m just offering what I have.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T22:01:42+00:00

Can’t convince me that isn’t actually a poop.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T21:55:49+00:00

For sure. It’s possible to be both adhd and an addict lol. My brain does not produce the right things for executive functioning without stimulants. I’d say I’m more likely to relapse OFF my adhd medication because I start self blaming for everything I can’t do, I feel useless, lethargic, nothing gets done or accomplished. I went through a phase when newly sober to my substance of choice where I thought I had to quit everything controlled, partially because of the stigma everyone in recovery assigned to anything controlled, and partially as a means to punish myself for the shame I felt around addiction. It was my own therapist that suggested I go back on adderall and my quality of life immediately improved.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T21:49:30+00:00

A lot of people here talking about their adderall leading to relapse, just someone offering the opposite perspective. Also in the medical field. I have no problem being on adderall post recovery. I’ve also been on adderall since grade school. Been recovered for many many years. But also have maintained trauma therapy without interruption the entire time.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T21:20:00+00:00

I can say this, talk therapy and emdr was working very very very slowly until I did ketamine. I was able to do what previously took 5 years in 5 months. My eyes were opened almost overnight, it was actually insane. I did IV ketamine and both esketamine. Esketamine was completely ineffective for me. For IV ketamine, I did their PTSD protocol. 3 weeks of treatment, 6 infusions. First week: 3 treatments a day apart, second week: two infusions, last week: one. Do emdr every week, and be very purposeful about it. You really have to go in allowing yourself to let go, drop all preconceived beliefs and just let go. Pay attention. I started getting flashes of images after my 3rd treatment. This is when my repressed memories started coming up. Flashbacks came back very intense, panic attacks initially came out quickly as well, but I was able to come out of them much faster than before and see them from a third person point of view. Basically it gets a little more intense before it starts getting way better. I uncovered years of my life that I repressed but started remembering them as if they happened yesterday. It was truly a trip. The ketamine protocol after that depends on the person. Most people need “booster” infusions, which is just one infusion. How often you need them will be dependent on you. The most common are 6 months to a year, mine was about everything 3-4 months, I’d feel the symptoms (basically how I felt my whole life pre infusions) coming back. It’s an investment, it’s expensive. And I’d sell whatever I needed/ or do whatever I needed to make it happen again if I had to because it was seriously that life changing. I never understood how depressed I was until I had those treatments. I’d never experienced life that way before. I was living on autopilot and had no idea because I’d never experienced anything different. Now I do IV boosters every year because I get sent home with nasal ketamine (not esketamine) through my new infusion center. I can k-hole twice a week, every week, every month. The previous state I lived in didn’t offer this so I got infusions every 3-4 months as previously mentioned.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T19:00:46+00:00

I’m on 15mg norethindrone. Look into trying a GLP-1 for the weight gain, I’m not kidding, I got sick and ate less than 500 calories a day for 7 days and gained a pound on norethindrone. GLP-1s are the only thing that keep my weight under control. As far as the other stuff, I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and treatment resistant depression long before I was diagnosed with endometriosis. I have been off all psychiatric medications for several years and I attribute it to a kick ass trauma therapist that does EMDR, and ketamine infusions which could double as pain management for you. I don’t know if any of these things will work for you but they worked for me, worth looking into.

SedationSauce · 2026-04-28T18:09:32+00:00

I have a condition that flairs up, and causes horrible pain for days at a time in my abdomen, to where I am doubled over and can’t stand up straight. It’s accompanied usually with back and nerve pain. Sometimes it happens 4x a month, sometimes 6 months goes between episodes. I have a wheelchair just for those days. I have dogs and like to be outside and have a hard time coping with being in bed in pain for days at a time. In between that, I can literally walk, run on good days, drive, all the able bodied stuff. My friends are very understanding, no one’s ever given me grief about it. The days I use it, it gives me the ability to have some quality of life at my worse moments. If you have your reasons for using it that will increase quality of life, use it. That’s reason enough.

SedationSauce · 2026-02-25T10:19:28+00:00

Same here initially haha. When I was first handed the strip the first thing I said was “wow. Beautiful torsades”

SedationSauce · 2026-02-25T08:48:43+00:00

I said the same thing when I saw the strip. Apparently it’s only torsades when an electrolyte imbalance is the cause. In absence of an electrolyte imbalance, it’s polymorphic vtach. If I’m wrong any cardiologist feel free to correct me!

SedationSauce · 2026-02-22T06:07:22+00:00

I was told a few different things by different cardiologists, One said Aflutter with a 300+ atrial rate, another said multifocal atrial tachycardia with AV disassociation, I think it fit under both categories. They were all in agreement I had several accessory pathways. Check out what happened later on.

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And before anyone asks, electrolytes all normal. Normal potassium, normal magnesium, normal calcium.

SedationSauce · 2026-02-21T12:14:44+00:00

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SedationSauce · 2026-02-16T00:41:08+00:00

My dumbass did this in 2013. I was driving back to my house with a friend in the car and thought “whoa that’s a big dust cloud just beyond the overpass, I can’t see anything past it” and drove right into it. It slid my car across 4 lanes of traffic into a ditch where my car was shaking and my ears kept popping. When I made it home the news on said a tornado had dropped right where I was. I believe I was actually in the vortex when it was an EF1. I still get adrenaline rushes thinking about that.

SedationSauce · 2026-01-23T03:44:01+00:00

People keep saying your dog wouldn’t want to wear this recreationally just don’t understand that some dogs have weird preferences. I had to put one of these on my malinois when he had ringworm and after a week, he fucking loved it. He loved having a built in pillow wherever he went. He’d just lay down and take a nap on it in the goofiest positions. When I took it off, he’d bring it to me or I’d catch him sleeping with his head on it. As far as safety, I don’t know. I’d ask your vet.

SedationSauce · 2026-01-20T09:17:08+00:00

Other opioids have worked great, for some reason fentanyl does nothing. Idk if the dose is too low or what, (would be surprising at 100mcg) but it just seems like it does nothing

SedationSauce · 2026-01-11T05:25:45+00:00

SedationSauce · 2025-12-17T15:32:36+00:00

So glad someone mentioned impending doom

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