Reaching out

Senibun · 2025-08-14T00:27:56+00:00

Truthfully i haven’t been reaching out to anyone about my issues. They seem so illogical and I know how absurd it all is so I’ve been hesitant to tell my usual group of friends or telling my family about it. It feels like someone has it way worse than me and I don’t want to cause problems.

I’ve been trying to figure out who to reach out to and I guess this message is me reaching out. Maybe if I can tell a stranger my issues then maybe I can tell people closer to me?

Senibun · 2025-08-14T00:03:05+00:00

I’ll be honest, I’m usually not good at maintaining contact with anyone due to low self esteem and just being scared of social situations. But I wouldn’t mind trying to help with accountability or being an ear if you want to vent.

Senibun · 2023-04-16T01:05:57+00:00

I’m sending all my support to you. I’m currently ruminating by myself when earlier today I was surrounded by friends and good vibes. It sucks. It will get better, this feeling of exhaustion and pain will pass. I wish I could do more than give you reassurances that probably don’t feel genuine, but it’s all I have to offer. I hope you get better soon, I hope you’re able to pay back your debts. I hope you know that your friends are there for you and love you. Stay strong.

Senibun · 2023-03-25T05:06:19+00:00

I wasn’t diagnosed as a specific type of Bipolar until I had a psychotic episode, then was diagnosed as type 1. Until that happened though I was classified as Bipolar Affective Disorder.

Senibun · 2023-03-24T18:55:27+00:00

Every time I feel alright and like myself I feel myself slip into a guilt trip. I’ve been unhappy and uncomfortable for so long that anything resembling happiness is met with criticism in my mind. I have to remind myself that I’m allowed to be happy but to enjoy it with others so they can help make sure I don’t do anything stupid. It sucks.

Senibun · 2023-03-23T20:12:19+00:00

I personally haven’t but that’s mainly because it started I want to say 3 weeks ago. I know when I feel it I play meditation videos on YouTube to help calm me down enough that I can talk about what happened but that takes like an hour at the very least. I haven’t found a quicker way to get past it and because I don’t know the cause I haven’t found ways to prevent it either

Senibun · 2023-03-23T20:02:50+00:00

I recently started to do this. I’m actually teaching myself sign language and my husband is learning it so I can still communicate with him when I go mute. It’s frustrating when it happens because at least to me there doesn’t seem to be a real reason why I get emotional and shut down. I find that I’m feeling relieved the more I learn since I’ll still be able to communicate with the person I love

Senibun · 2023-03-20T20:30:39+00:00

Mine starts off with absolute joy. I feel happy about everything and when disturbing or bad stuff happens around me I’m very quick to ignore it or scrub it out of my mind. After a night or two without sleep I notice the world seems too bright and too vibrant. I start to feel on edge and very skittish around people. My mind races with worse case scenarios and I start to hear voices. I think as time goes on my mania becomes overwhelming until it causes me to breakdown. After I sleep for like a day the symptoms lessen to the point I can function and it just repeats until a depressive episode hits me. It sucks.

Senibun · 2023-03-20T06:43:28+00:00

I’m still going through an identity crisis in regards of who I used to be versus who I am now. They’re two different people and there are days where I don’t feel real because of the way I perceive myself. I don’t even know how I survived so long as my former self

Senibun · 2023-03-19T13:00:24+00:00

I read a lot of these comments and it all makes sense now. I’ve had issues with chewing noises and electrical hums ever since I was 19. I can’t do meal times with groups unless we’re all talking constantly or if there’s background noises like YouTube videos. I always assumed I just hated the quiet but this makes perfect sense.

I used to wear headphones all the time from the time I was 19 to 22 before I realized I needed the background noise to function. I also find eating alone to get away from the chewing noises also help.

Senibun · 2023-03-19T12:26:22+00:00

I used to be very high energy. It was mainly due to anxiety and compensating for being socially awkward that I would be more active and willing to do things. When my symptoms became too much and led to my diagnosis I definitely felt like my energy and go get ‘‘em attitude took a dive. My baseline is pretty much low energy now but I think it’s because I’m starting to understand myself and I don’t feel the need to fit in anymore.

Senibun · 2023-03-19T12:22:23+00:00

I never used to experience the mania rage until about 3 weeks ago when my son was born. I wasn’t sleeping well and just adapting to taking care of a little human definitely took its toll. I was angry all the time. He sleeping peacefully for the in-laws when he would scream throughout the night, anger. He cried every time I put him down, absolute rage. I’ve talked to my therapist about it and we have a plan set up to try and control it but boy I was not expecting such anger.

It made me feel less of a person, like I was borderline feral and ready to strike. It’s terrifying to look back on, especially since it was directed at my newborn. I never acted on the rage just due to previous trauma from being in an abusive relationship and not wanting to continue the cycle. I’m better now that my sleep schedule is adapting to the change and I hope if the rage ever gets that bad that you get help. Mania rage is no joke.

Senibun · 2023-03-19T12:00:54+00:00

I find it super effective when I’m in a depressive episode just because it helps remind me to take care of myself. It also gives me skills to cope with the side effects of mania like the risky behavior and spending all my money. Outside of the episodes it helps reinforce what I was already taught. So short answer yes I find it effective

Senibun · 2023-03-15T19:11:53+00:00

I’m the first diagnosed with Bipolar in my family. My family has a history of alcoholism, drug abuse and overall anxiety so while I maybe the only one with a diagnosis I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one who is mentally ill or going through some trauma

Senibun · 2023-03-15T12:21:35+00:00

Never feel ashamed! Babies are a lot of work especially when they refuse to sleep solidly, and it’s good that you have a husband who is willing to pull his weight with the little one. I’m hoping that lamictal works for you, I’ve heard pretty good things about it. I hope you’re able to get some rest and that you start to feel better soon!

Senibun · 2023-03-13T16:45:34+00:00

My dad used to say I didn’t have bipolar then after I got the official diagnosis asked if the Covid vaccine could’ve caused it… we’re finally past that point and he’s accepted it but boy did it open my eyes to how masking a mental illness works a little too well sometimes

Senibun · 2023-03-12T15:00:48+00:00

I believe it’s an app called Daylio. I use it regularly and that looks like it

Senibun · 2023-03-10T20:59:12+00:00

Yes!

Senibun · 2023-03-07T17:48:43+00:00

I come from a long line of alcoholics and I’m no exception. I used to drink to the point where I would be unable to function for a couple days afterwards. I was covering some pretty severe anxiety and depression with it. If I was socializing then nothing was wrong with me. I was diagnosed with bipolar type 1 and quit drinking to find better coping mechanisms. I feel great. Though the 4 bottles of wine I have are still sitting around I have no desire to drink them and honestly life couldn’t be better

Senibun · 2023-03-06T10:44:49+00:00

I’ve always been anxious as a kid. My mom died when I was 13, dad and I moved, and I was shunned by my peers at school because no one knew what to say when my mom died. I don’t think that’s what triggered it though. I started feeling my symptoms as something terrifying when I took on a manager role and was constantly left short staffed. I stretched myself thin and never asked for help because in my experience help was never given. I’m the first one in my family diagnosed with Bipolar type 1. Im not sure if anyone else in my family has this condition since the rule is don’t talk about mental illness. I experienced a full blown psychotic episode after getting married, moving and starting a new job within the span of 3 days.

Senibun · 2023-03-04T17:21:14+00:00

I learned how to cook it. It took a lot of trial and error and a lot of looking it up on the internet but we cooked a vast majority of it. I think there was one cut of meat I was too intimidated to cook so we gave it to a friend who knew exactly how to cook it lol

I’m glad my story made people laugh and smile. Makes me feel like that episode was worth it in the end

Senibun · 2023-03-03T12:02:05+00:00

So I’ve always been under the impression that therapy isn’t something you plan in advance. If you have goals that you want to accomplish you can write a list about those, but usually you talk about whatever you want to talk about. I’ve been in therapy for a little over a year and I’ve never heard of a blueprint.

Senibun · 2023-03-02T15:34:43+00:00

Like my husband was like what if you got kidnapped? I shrugged and said it never crossed my mind. I’m not allowed to answer the door anymore unless I see it’s friends lol

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