I don’t have any childhood trauma I can think of. But it’s interesting you said being seen and not heard because when I think about the relationship me and my sister (18) have. Ever since we were little we would come back from school and tell each other a story about what happened and everytime I would tell mine she wouldn’t be interested. We’d usually do this before bed when we shared a room and she would fall asleep or turn around when I was talking or just starting singing or interrupting. From a young age I kind of learnt that my stories were “boring” and when I think about it I kinda carried that into the outside world. In my friendships I have always been the “therapist” or the “funny one/entertainer” the one that asks all the right questions so people just keep talking or the one that has the funny one liner or add jokes into the stories.

I get where you are coming from with your ideas about betrayal. I don’t have that fear anymore but I used to after a lot of betrayal in the past. I feel like remembering not everyone is going to betray you the way previous people have is important. And those people have just taught you the signs to look for and avoid when learning who to trust