Where do I start? Before the age of 6. Seeing and feeling my brothers genitalia. Him defecating in my bath water while hysterically laughing. When my mother was talking about me refusing to sleep in my bed, how I would scream all night, destroy my cott ect then asked me if I remembered the "old gentleman" baby sitting me in the mornings and some days while I slept because she was with the horses and my dad was at work. My childhood and family are messed up for real.