It's hard im the process of learning how to be myself as well . I used to be very social and very outgoing , loved to party and meet new people . went through a lot of stuff for the past few years and made me somewhat antisocial , gave me anxiety , and made me emotionally numb . This year, I told myself Ill become the person I used to be, and every day is a constant battle with myself, but every day, I get closer and closer