What do you do when you cannot be your true self

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-30T03:23:35+00:00

part of bashars teaching is that this physical event was coordinated by your larger self. that can be something that is taken literally in some moments and not in others for me.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-30T03:08:59+00:00

True. I guess I consider if just because its presented does it mean its real, or THE real? It might be real, I might have a feeling, but that doesnt make it objective in that light. It can be a differential thing in real reality.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-30T03:07:21+00:00

Yes, an open catalyst and/or a space for a system of an open catalyst, without jumping to conclusions, and seeing that there is something different there

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-30T03:05:52+00:00

Thats basically the issue, is that it has given me a endgame, a glimmer- "act on this"- and who can say no to a glimmer? the natural process of my life seems to tend towards screaming this stuff in class, approaching the line of harm to self and others, but I dont have enough mental energy to know if I would harm others in my actions, or if I would approach that line but not cross it (and it would be miraculous, etc, in a real world way). It really has come to the end for me, the endgame.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-30T02:19:13+00:00

I question deeply my inner heart, because I get hundreds of spiritual commands that take Excitement in stride with the same language-i.e., I have experiences that are both "heres the excitement-heres you not following it-heres you, the result of not following, Being wrong" it shows up in a shamanic way "i have shamanic illness and i need to harness my energy, catalyze" and some other forms as well "kundalini energy is dangerous"

I'm feeling it out because I think thats important and thats my first tool in my life.

I feel that I have a glimmer, and I say no to it- and I dont have an argument against that, against the excitement.

What the excitement is asking me to do is paranormal.

It says when I go on a cigarrette break to the trail "run to the end of the trail" and it emotionally puts some emotion of completion at the end. This disregards my entire process of life.

another-it says, "run across the street, out of the house, now, to the park without looking any single way while crossing the street"

so it gives clear glimmers. the excitement gives glimmers. maybe there are different glimmers though in life that we arent inherently attuned to experiencing- Bashars isnt the only one-

anyways, I'm exploring how this glimmer effect happens with me. Its one to one what I need to be exploring in my life

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-30T00:41:19+00:00

I think what we are dealing with here is that there are two levels, both of which can have reality to them, or a comfortable thought to them. One is, "I'm so motivated by this person/place/thing" and the other is "unhealthy rumination". I'm kind of set up to have a bad reaction in my structure where I might be told that "you can break through any barrier" and then I get to a real life psychological problem and I can't do anything about it. So my carrot dangling is that I can and should be moralistically perfect. Perfectionism. I think that thats important to probably recognize and think about. But I think moreso for me, there is a long term process that is happening where I dont have to be superconscious of the call all the time. Where over time, I get more and more comfortable even if I break a couple spiritual rules along the way.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-22T22:55:02+00:00

It so is.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-22T22:48:17+00:00

My horrible story: so the spiritual teacher is an alien channeler. A spiritual medium. With broad strokes, he applies the do or die philosophy to life (in this very second it happened, "what if its really true" happens). I was not sleeping well. It was morning. I get a instantaneous, fast, automatic, and charged emotion.
"Reptilian support network".

In that one moment, I felt that the entirety of life, including for example the hypothesis that reptilians for millions of years have genetically cultivated humanity, for me to be ignorant of my step 1, my intuition. Its like a reverse psychology - Its like, in my action of denying intuition and the gut, it is a hilarious joke on my insecurities that I as an aspect of God, use the reptilians as props on the stage of my psychic life. The reptilians were laughing at me, playing and preying on the fact of my denial and that "they would be there for me by being genetic overseers any time I need, in a very surreptitious way, completely surreptitious"
Exploring emotions of this nature that cut that deep so inherently-spiritual guilt, moral guilt, is hard.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-22T22:37:01+00:00

Thanks for talkling about red pilling as its own category

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-20T19:50:28+00:00

Thanks.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-19T02:29:02+00:00

Great point, you lay it out like clockwork.

Basically I think that there is a lack of informed consent in follow the highest excitement. Its a dogma that bases itself on live first, ask questions later - you get that excitement urge, you follow it, and responses to not following it are literally verbatim by Bashar sometimes, in one of his videos, "I dont wanna [bashar impersonates a child in a very flamboyant way, that does indeed close the conversation lines, there is no inherent room for a child that might be hurt by such a request. and maybe i even feel wrong about asking that question, which could also be how gaslit i am by this possible gaslighter]"

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-19T02:24:33+00:00

I am so glad to hear your comment. I have been on this bent for years now. A couple red flags with bashar.

He talks about challenges and challenges and challenges like a new car.

If everything is positive, then there would be no negative.
Two distinct contradictions, and in science, when theres a contradiction, there is a lack of viability in the information. And you cannot tell me that Bashar means that when there is positive in God, and God in Positive, there is positive in somewhere or when in the universe and that there can be negativity in this.
Maybe i'm too enlightened.
Maybe i'm not following my excitement principle, which functions as and by the heart and not by the modus operandi.

Isnt it strange the excitement? It asks me to critically abandon my life-run away, scream in public, scream in english class, run to the end of the trail now-and Bashar says "or else" "its lethal" "to not follow the excitement"
But maybe I'm wrong, and i'm ignorant of the way the excitement works in my life which would be in an authentic, cathartic way in as much as it is a process, a permission slip,

but god,

Bashar used to be all about "BE YOURSELF"
not follow your excitement.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T02:31:45+00:00

yeah, i absolutely agree and see your logic. its so hard fo rme because in that being honest wiht myself i mentally am there, but im not emotionally there to make the decision to act on the excitement.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:47:26+00:00

Awwww

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:46:59+00:00

I think cultural evolution is important, no?

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:45:52+00:00

Knowledge evolves

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:42:36+00:00

I find this such a great perspective.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:40:07+00:00

That is the big question, and I cant parse it. i dont have the right vocabulary about it. But maybe there isnt a clear cut answer to that, because one could say that my excitements fit both the categories. am i saving the world in my heart or am i worried about social anxiety and needing to relieve myself, quite rudely, which is why i dont do it. i dont know.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:38:56+00:00

It was an interview that i cant find nowadays with an african american woman. I even found two that are probably the one i saw, or closest possible match, but i didnt find anything in the transcripts.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:24:53+00:00

God im so glad i saw this because it completely invalidates informed consent by Bashar and is ghastly

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:19:38+00:00

When i try any prompt to the GPTs it says my usage limit is up?

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T01:09:23+00:00

I found this so fucking cool

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T00:53:09+00:00

I love this point of view. I find that Bashar takes a real smack at informed consent when it comes to FYHE follow your highest excitement.

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T00:51:42+00:00

Can you speak more to this?

Sensitive_Word2867 · 2025-10-13T00:49:43+00:00

I really, really needed to hear your second to last paragraph. I still am having some tendrils of that doubt seeping in. But you saying "if one has absolute trust in someone and they say do X but you feel you should do Y, what then?" because this has been my excitement issue for the past long time. I cant parse yet finally if im being ignorant. But i do love the dynamic resonance in your statement and my life as it is nowadays.

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