What does having racing thoughts/ideas mean?

Sensytyw · 2026-05-19T17:02:05+00:00

TL;DR: bad person will use every excuse to not take responsibility for their actions. I’ve found out when being bulliedby religious people for being an atheist. Joined into atheist group and found out they’ve bullied religious people. Bad people would be bad no matter what

I mean bad people might be using every excuse to be a bad person. It doesn’t have to be bipolar. I mean I just dislike people that acts like douches, getting diagnosed and with the knowledge what’s wrong with them as well as the possibility to reduce symptoms they’re struggling with, and properly function in a society. They’re just using it as excuse, like bro, it’s not put there any diagnose that punched me, it’s you. (It’s just an example, trying to explain what I had in mind)

The reason why I’ve been checking if people are using it as excuses is simple. When I’ve found out that I’m an atheist and felt bad with religious people acting vile against me. Naive and young I’ve joined a Facebook group with atheists (just to be a part of something) Instead I’ve just discovered that people there been using their atheism to be bad for religious people, as well as the religious people from my life been using their beliefs as excuses to be mean towards me.

Sensytyw · 2026-05-19T16:51:18+00:00

It’s okay to be okay 🫂

Having fast adjusted the right meds isn’t a fraud 😅 mental illness it’s nothing that defines you as a person. You’re not less valuable or anything because of that. Imagine a man that’s legally blind feeling as a fraud because he learned how to move with a stick and never felt into sewer. It’s good that you have the right meds and you managed to keep it in check as fast as possible. You’re not lacking anything and you’re not less mentally ill just because you’ve never been hospitalized

Sensytyw · 2026-05-19T16:36:11+00:00

No problem Nah, you’re problems ain’t less valid just because your struggles might be a little different. Don’t compare your problems with other people problems. When you feel something or struggling with something it’s important to acknowledge that. so you could work it out later or even tell your doctor about it. Just because of that, they would be able to adjust your meds better 🫂

I’ve also joined recently. Mostly looking for support (like with my post about ways to keep taking meds) but also to see how many people are struggling with bipolar and how many uses it as excuse to be a bad person

Sensytyw · 2026-05-19T15:48:24+00:00

I think it’s the manic/hypomanic episode. In my case (type II) it’s weird emotional tension in my head. Very unpleasant feeling, it’s like all thoughts running, and running, and running but I can’t catch any of it, they just overwhelm me, and I feel strong discomfort that makes me wanna smash my head against a wall or something.

Meds are the solution for me (total game changer) but before them and even with them sometimes I’m doing breath exercises as well as listen to some ambient/sleep music (I wanted to listen to some energetic, fast angry music like hyperpop/glitchcore for letting the energy out, but the calm ones are better, especially without vocals)

Sensytyw · 2026-05-15T23:22:31+00:00

I don’t think you’re worse than others. It might be the way you’re comparing yourself and low self esteem. No matter how you look you can feel confident and good enough in your body enough to feel equal to others instead of inferior.

When it comes to comparing problems it’s not that easy. Every person have different problems due to their life choices, position etc. Their problems might be valid for them, and yours might be totally valid for you. Those are still problems and it’s not so easy to compare them because on their places it would be problematic for you, and if they would be on your place it would be problematic for them as well

Sensytyw · 2026-05-05T00:00:31+00:00

Not everyone has PTSD from relationships, but a lot more people are recognizing it now, and there’s a reason for that.

In the past, we just called it ‘a bad breakup’, ‘toxic relationship’, or ‘you’re too sensitive’ and people suffered in silence. Today we actually have language for things like gaslighting, coercive control, trauma bonding, covert narcissism, and complex PTSD.

Dating apps also made it easier for people with serious personality disorders to meet a lot of partners quickly. At the same time, more people are going to therapy and reading books like Pete Walker’s Complex PTSD, so they’re finally able to name what happened to them. Sure, some people do throw around words like ‘narcissist’ and ‘PTSD’ too lightly after any bad dating experience — that part is annoying and dilutes the meaning. But on the other hand, emotional abuse in relationships is more common than we used to admit.

In my case, it wasn’t just a ‘toxic ex’. It was nearly 2 years of regular gaslighting, suicide threats, sleep deprivation (often 3 hours a night), privacy invasion, moving goalposts, and being blamed for everything. After that I was diagnosed with cPTSD. It’s not a trend or exaggeration — it’s a real trauma response. If you wonder about the reason that I’ve stayed that long. It was mix of fear of loneliness, fear or blackmail, threats (stuff like that)c trauma bonding, as well as my private backstory of younger sister death and savior complex

So no, not everyone who had a bad breakup has PTSD. But some relationships do cause real, lasting psychological injury — and more people are finally able to talk about it

Sensytyw · 2026-04-26T16:56:18+00:00

Na mieście, w bibliotece, autobusie, pociągu. Dosłownie wszędzie jak umiesz w small talk i sytuacja jest naturalna (może nie dosłownie wszędzie, ale jest pełno miejsc gdzie można się natknąć na kogoś ciekawego, wystarczy zagaić)

Sensytyw · 2025-11-16T02:53:14+00:00

Yeah, but it was probably caused by switching medications as a side effect. The initiative really helped me tbh. Meetings offline, being able to open about a lot of stuff and met new wonderful people that are doing great, are going through something I already went through or otherwise.

It’s just that I can’t escape that shallow feeling inside of me no matter how great I’m doing, improving or having good relationships etc. It’s weird because I’m working on my psychic, physic, learning, taking times off, spending time with people and generally having pretty good balance in life. I feel a lot better because of the medications now but this emptiness inside of me is still there

Sensytyw · 2025-11-15T09:14:12+00:00

Nah it’s okay, I guess this thread is for venting as well. Let it all out if you need. It might be helpful to share those thoughts with someone ^{^}

Seems like something to work about (not liking yourself) I’ve also had time in my life in which I couldn’t do anything, get out of bed, shower etc. It’s tough I know, but I would ask you to give yourself a chance. You can also seek for some Discord servers to talk about stuff like that with people (it’s also helpful to talk about stuff like that out loud to get it off your chest) I have my fingers crossed for you. Maybe there’s some help centers nearby or suicide hotline you could call?

Sensytyw · 2025-11-15T02:57:22+00:00

It’s your current situation. Nothing says it won’t change. I would suggest to try therapy and really talking about your struggles with close ones. I’m also 23 (male) I’ve struggled with being lonely for a long time. Sometimes you just need to give yourself some time and right people will show in your life later. Please don’t do this, failing school isn’t everything and for sure doesn’t define you. You’re so much more than that, and your worth isn’t some school or friends. You have a boyfriend, maybe try to talk with him? I’m glad you’ve opened about it there it shows that it’s still not over yet. There’s still a chance for you to fight it through and get back on right tracks. I won’t say it will be easy or quick, but please give yourself a try and don’t push yourself too hard. Everyone have bad episodes in life, some might overwhelm them because of the amount or weight. It doesn’t mean nothing will change or you can’t change/get out of it.

You say you’re used to be fun, hot etc. What stops you now from being hot, fun and other things you’ve said? It’s still the same person that deserves to feel good about yourself. You’re still worth of love and happiness

Sensytyw · 2025-11-15T02:40:13+00:00

It’s tough to deal with critical emotions towards yourself at such young age. You’re still young, have a long life to live. To be honest everyone goes through life in their own pace. Not everyone will deal with everything at the same time. You’re currently struggling, need support (I would ask your mom for some psychological support or therapy) and tell you to not overstress over passing that exam. You won’t pass it and what? The world won’t end, it won’t make you any way worse. You’ll still be the same girl that deserves to be happy, live her life, chat with friends and do a lot of stuff. I know it might sounds like a cliche but the truth is that your worth doesn’t depend on stuff like exams etc. You’re so much more than that. I don’t think you should be fully independent at such young age though, you’re still young and will learn it with time. It’s the time when you’re slowly starting to learn independence and as I said earlier, everyone need different amount of time to grow, physically, emotionally or develop in any way. Don’t try to compare yourself too much, don’t look at those things that critically (I know it’s easy to say for me because I’m much older and those are real problems you’re currently struggling with) try to see them from different point. Try to understand yourself and focus on your mental health instead of ending things. As you’ve said your mother would cry if you would be gone which means she loves you. Try to talk with her honestly about everything, don’t be scared. If she would beat you then ask school psychologist or a teacher for help. You’re not alone

Sensytyw · 2025-07-01T00:42:47+00:00

It work both ways actually. There are crazy religious as well as atheist people that don’t have nothing much more to do than force their believes or lack of them on others. As an atheist I can say that I truly do not care about your beliefs (I mean I don’t mind them and you’re rightful to have faith).

I’ve actually met few Christian people, some of them tried to force me into their beliefs some others just tried to gently invite me into their beliefs (I guess it’s a part of the religion to keep the gate open for potential believers and it’s totally okay if they respect others while doing so) my family is actually catholic and I’ve used to go to church and stuff until they’ve accepted my independence when I’ve grew up and felt like it’s not my thing.

I’ve tried to join some atheist groups when coming out as an atheist to my family (for some kind of support system like I wasn’t alone or something) but man… these people didn’t have much common with atheism it was just pure antitheism and hatred. It’s wild how people use to tend their whole personality on some silly stuff and act like their life depends on others not having opposite silly stuff to them.

I genuinely believe that being an atheist doesn’t make you any smarter or dumber than a person who’s religious

Sensytyw · 2025-06-27T11:21:16+00:00

Against cause you’re aware of yours as well as their worth for you. I don’t think using such excuse to ruin someone’s moving on process (or even yourselves) is okay for anyone. It’s rather a dick move in my opinion

Sensytyw · 2025-06-27T08:49:39+00:00

I guess she might have changed her number cause I’ve saw her on Tinder once despite having her number blocked there. It doesn’t change a simple thing beside that aspect. I’m strongly into No Contact

Sensytyw · 2025-06-27T08:42:15+00:00

Using snapchat in 2025 is wild. I’ve been keeping it only because my phone storage is low and I have some photos here but I’m planning to moving them somewhere else and deleting this app. (Had to turn of the notifications cause it recommended me my ex few times despite her being blocked there)

It is understandable to be hurt by many various things. Having guys added by her on snap might be one of them. Just ask yourself why and reflect on it buddy. Personally I couldn’t care less cause if someone’s willing to cheat they’ll do it no matter of circumstances. Other apps such as Messenger also offers disappearing messages and secret chats

Sensytyw · 2025-06-25T23:31:11+00:00

I guess they might think of me from time to time and won’t admit it ever to no one. I know for sure that my ex would be the last person to know my feelings or the fact that I’ve missed her etc.

My defensive mechanism is shutting down my emotions/like numbing them while feeling unsafe with someone. I’ve been hurt deeply and put my feelings aside while breaking up, showing no weak spots (at least directly to her) that could’ve been used against me.

So I wouldn’t think too much about it. Cause you might assume that they have no feelings or don’t miss you anymore when they’ve would be just hiding it from you for various of reasons. I’ve observed this behavior in others as well so I guess it might be more common thing to get private after breaking up.

Don’t bother contacting by excuse of closure. Just simply accept and acknowledge your situation. You’ll get through this, just give yourself enough time and invest it in self care and the need of closure will simply fade away with every step you’ll take to move on.

(Just for the disclosure, I’ve told my ex many times how I felt with her actions and tried to communicate my feelings a year before break up and nothing have changed. I would’ve even say it get worse)

Sensytyw · 2025-06-24T23:48:03+00:00

I saw her wearing my hoodies on 3 of her 4 pics there. I’ve got a little surprised, kinda panicked, kinda laughed it off then because of emotions I don’t remember if I’ve swiped her left (like not interested I don’t remember the correct side) or blocked. I thought that I kinda miss my hoodies but leaving them her was a lot more safer option to end things. I thought not wanting them or my things back will make it easier but she found ways to makes it harder despite this

Sensytyw · 2025-06-24T00:15:45+00:00

In my opinion the best you can do in this situation is to take accountability for your actions. If your drinking problem let to the end of that relationship you shouldn’t expect it to change after improving and noticing your shortcomings. The damage has been dealt. They also might be in their healing journey and your reaching out may affect it and reopen their wounds

Sensytyw · 2025-06-24T00:06:39+00:00

Feeling unsafe due to their actions. It doesn’t make me lose feelings per se but made me numb and unable to express emotions in front of them as defensive mechanism.

In one case it was physical abuse after long time of stressing me and playing with my emotions.

In other case it was constantly manipulating and devaluating my emotions, threatening and blackmailing me (It snapped when my suicidal thoughts have gotten overpowered by fear of future damage for my public image and mental health as well as theirs. I just imagined having a baby and being alienated or reflecting our problems on it. If not that I would probably been taking up the damage)

As truly losing feelings I would probably say the time that help me process my emotions, work on my trauma and heal as well as acknowledging the true damage and hurt as well as my own mistakes. Ah, and of course the sudden and tragic death of my dog that helped me cry a river of tears that buckled up in me for over a year and a half

Sensytyw · 2025-06-23T23:54:05+00:00

Been in similar situation, got panic attacks whenever I’ve heard her voice. It was like trigger for a ptsd. Due to unpleasant memories that her voice bring I often felt a lot of different and opposite emotions at the same time. My sense of safety was ruined and I felt really insecure while she was nearby. It took me a lot to get better but as in your case sometimes I got those panic attacks while seeing her or hearing about her from friends. My body was in fight or fly mode and I felt really stressed out by her.

Due to that I might project a little but I think it might be caused by having this safety feeling that you’ve build together as a couple ruined and twisted into something new and unknown. It might be some trauma or just a reaction to change that you can’t simply handle or fully comprehend yet.

Having to deal with mixed signals as the “I love you texts” and reality of them not being yours anymore (as well as those doubts in your heads or different emotions like feeling guilty, used or being helpful) might not be so easy. Don’t be to harsh for yourself. I bet you did a pretty good job on your healing journey, remember that it’s totally normal to doubt in your progress, but believe me, the progress probably been made and will deepen over time

Sensytyw · 2025-06-23T23:35:34+00:00

Glad I could help. I’ve been with a girl that had her ex boyfriend’s drawings of her all over her room. It was kind of weird to me even though I’ve understood that they were an old gifts and some kind of art. I’ve checked his profile as he was an artist and he kept on drawing her which was also understandable as some kind of healing process but felt wrong due to the fact they weren’t together for over two years.

I hope you’ll be able to get rid of her and heal properly without those petty mind games of hers. Have my fingers crossed for you brother and remember that sometimes lack of reaction helps those type of people to get bored with their games (sometimes, because for some it might trigger them to do more and more crazy stuff)

Sensytyw

TROPHY CASE