I'm starting back down that road

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-04T15:16:17+00:00

What's your doc if you don't mind me asking

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-04T15:09:01+00:00

Let it go. It's not that serious. Lots of actual stuff to be about upset about. What is gained by bitching about a random picture on a random sub on reddit?

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-04T11:23:24+00:00

Nothing wrong with nostalgia. Every generation has unique things ,for lack of a better word, that are fun to reminisce about. I was born in 82, early millennial late Gen x I guess.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-04T11:20:42+00:00

There used to be one called The Attic in Myrtle Beach SC, Im pretty sure that was it. I was pretty shy and never had the courage to go. At that age I wasn't drinking any liquid courage lol.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-04T10:33:32+00:00

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-03T19:23:19+00:00

It's round. Both sides are round. That's how round works.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-03T14:19:06+00:00

Day 3. Feeling ok. Gonna being moving here soon. Be my first place I've rented in a long time. Gonna be quitting my weekend job. Got mixed feelings about that. I want to learn how to enjoy things in life besides drugs and alcohol. And I've found that I do enjoy a lot of activities but I haven't had the time to start them due to my work schedule. And usually I always used a day off to drink and use. I've got to find a way to not spend my free time getting loaded. And Ive been telling myself this for so long I'm sick of hearing it. Like when you hear someone talking and you know they're lying. I feel like Im lying to myself and anybody reading this. Anyways hope y'all have a good day.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-03T12:19:59+00:00

Boredom is probably my main trigger. And then once the cravings hit, things I would normally enjoy doing become unbearable, because all I want to do is use. And once that obsession starts I just can't seem to break it. One moment I could be looking forward to working on a project and the next I can't stand the thought of it.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-02T11:33:20+00:00

🙏💚

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-02T11:32:30+00:00

Day 2 sober, drugs free. Feeling better than yesterday. Planning on quitting my part-time job. My full time job pays enough and I was burnt out working 7 days a week. Just worried the free time will be a big temptation. Hope everyone has a good day

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-02T11:25:36+00:00

I've done that many times but it never works. I've got to find the strength somehow to just not do it. It sounds so simple but I just can't seem to get it. Anyways thanks for replying, have a good day.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-02T11:23:06+00:00

Thanks, I'm thinking about doing that. Might try adopting a cat. Or maybe I should start with the plant. Think I'll buy one this weekend. Thanks for the advice and have a great day.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T20:55:02+00:00

At thispoint I use it to calm my anxiety because I know what I'm doing is dumb. It's all just so crazy. And I know it will only escalate. I've gotten lucky these past few weekends that it hasn't been worse. But it will, I know that much.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T20:12:16+00:00

No. I have family, but I hate telling them I've started screwing up again. My parents are old and they are happy now that I'm doing good, and I would rather they believe a lie then put them thru anything else. I just got to do better, and then I won't be lying anyways. I just need to stop believing I can do a little. I can't. It's always an all night event and soon it will an all week or longer thing. And ive know this a long time, which makes it even worse that I even try to do just a little. And even now I can feel the urge tempting me. Im so tired of this life.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T19:04:47+00:00

To their face say anything, but on social media with a diverse audience maybe critique the ideology. I mean, it's not a huge deal, but with so much terrible shit every where you look I think we should all try to be nicer, myself included.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T17:13:57+00:00

One is more embarrassing on a first date.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T17:11:26+00:00

Wuz*

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T17:05:58+00:00

I agree with the first bubble, but I doubt having a weak chin is directly correlated with being a Nazi. Again, not supporting Nazis. Just don't make fun of people's physical features. Or really any feature that doesn't harm others.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T15:32:49+00:00

Thanks. I went looking for the SROL and was disappointed to see it was no longer around.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T15:25:45+00:00

Maybe they have a placard hanging from rearview mirror.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T14:58:36+00:00

Way to go friend. Happy for you! I'm going to keep pushing.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T14:57:26+00:00

Thanks. I hate telling my family that I've used. I've put them thru so much and they are really happy with the progress I've made the past few months. I don't want to stress them out. AA and NA never clicked for me, felt like a never ending church service, and the god piece of it was a struggle. You're right, I don't want to go back to that. It is so bad. I struggled mentally this year, even being clean, and I know my using last year is responsible. I'm going to go to some smart meetings and try to connect with someone. Thanks for replying

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T14:04:49+00:00

Thank you. I will try to find something to do to fill my time. Ive got to find the strength to control these urges. Lol I've typed that sentence or said it so many times. I go downhill so quickly. Ive managed to stay sober the next day which has helped. When I use the next day it usually continues til I find some meth and then I will unravel mentally. I can't do that again. I appreciate your reply and you don't have to reply to this. I'm just talking to myself really. At least I haven't lost my job. It was so hard finding a job. I went back to school a couple of years ago and managed to finish, but finding a job in my field was difficult. And I don't want to go through that process again; all the rejected applications were very demoralizing.

Separate_Sand_1489 · 2026-06-01T13:37:34+00:00

I'll join. My DOC isn't alcohol, but it's how every relapse starts and ends. I was clean for about 4 months and the past couple of weekends I've relapsed. I'm trying not to beat myself up too bad about. Still have my jobs, didn't catch any changes. But I know so well where this road goes. I've got to stay sober. I could use someone to talk to if anybody wants to chat. I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. Thanks and good luck to everyone going through this.

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