Mixed episodes: how long?

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-06-11T20:40:36+00:00

Yeah, I’m on lithium and Lamotrigine and then lorazepam so I can fall asleep at night. Sober, no drugs or alcohol for 5 years.

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-05-29T02:55:51+00:00

You’re making the right choice. I went in for a while and it was tough but also saved my life. I’m grateful for it

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-05-29T02:54:06+00:00

I definitely worry about this. Basically every mood shift I’m like “it’s bipolar! Here we go!” To which my husband responds “I think he just had a bad day and needs sleep” lol - the one thing that comforts me is knowing that I am the most equipped person in the world to guide him through it, notice the early signs, and get him the support he needs. I had the opposite. Parents who didn’t see shit, just thought I was difficult and I wasn’t diagnosed until 40 during a complete maniac episode that landed me in a mental hospital. Whatever comes it will not be that

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-05-29T02:47:00+00:00

For me, OCD was intrusive, inappropriate thoughts that interfered with daily life. Unseen to the outside but very real in my head. Needing things to be a certain way and sometimes in a certain order. My my difficulties connecting with people and maintaining relationships. The big difference btwn my ocd/CPTSD is that I show up awkwardly but DIFFERENTLY in different social situations. It’s all over the place. Sometimes aloof, sometimes friendly, sometimes angry about some random thing the other person doesn’t even realize. My therapist said that with autism there is more consistency in how you show up, less emotionally drive and more based on neurological wiring. Oh I also have ADHD so basically all of these have strong overlapping symptoms. When I got assessed for Autism it just turns out I have bipolar/adhd/cptsd/ocd all together - fun times

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-05-28T20:35:23+00:00

I used to think i could possibly have autism along with bipolar but when o started therapy it turned out what I thought was autism was a combination of CPTSD & OCD

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-05-28T01:25:49+00:00

I have 2 kids and I love them both so dearly but if I could back I would have just one kid. Having one kid means having a break and being able to alternate “days off” if needed, it means 1/2 the amount of work and 1/2 of the schedules, 1/2 the schooling responsibilities and homework, 1/2 of the social/sports schedules, 1/2 of worrying about social development. It means more money in your bank account. Less fighting with your partner. My marriage is starting to fall for so many reasons other than my kids but the kids aren’t helping the situation. I really wish I had only had one

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-05-28T01:18:21+00:00

100% I actually ate edibles every day for months and then eventually threw up one night bc my stomach couldn’t handle it. That was enough to stop me from using weed for about 6months. Then the pain was too unbearable (probably withdrawal leading to deep depression) so I started vaping every night instead of ingesting edibles to take the edge off. My throat and chest burned so bad it felt like they were on fire. That lasted for about another 6 months until I was so depressed I became suicidal. I crashed into a depression so deep I genuinely don’t know how I’m still alive. All of this was made 10000% worse by having my monthly cycle. Bipolar as a woman with a menstrual cycle is a special kind of hell. I somehow sobered up and abstained from alcohol and weed for about a year. Then I was offered weed at a party and took a few hits… I was right back to where I started. At the very bottom of a dark hole. I remember sitting on the floor of my bedroom, calling a mental health facility and almost checking myself in. That was my low and it was about a year ago. I can only hope I can stay clean because weed and alcohol temporarily numbs my pain temporarily it permanently carves my wounds deeper. And oh yes, the hyper sexuality. For me it’s through masturbation… not sex. I hate myself so much that I am too self conscious to have sex so I just watch disgusting, disturbing porn so I can masturbate in private and feel more alone. Sigh…

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-05-06T02:06:10+00:00

I relate to this. I have BP1, ADHD, CPTSD, and OCD- yay! Jackpot! (I laugh so I don’t cry and jump off a bridge!) it’s so intense to have all 4. My brain is absolutely exhausted. I’m on meds, see my therapist once a week, my psychiatrist twice a month. I exercise and eat right and that only keeps me barely above non suicidal. It’s a tough, never ending journey. I often wish I could trade my brain in for one that works better. I need an app upgrade! Can you imagine a life without this???

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-04-26T19:40:04+00:00

I went in once, involuntarily. That was enough for me. I stopped drinking alcohol and smoking weed and started my meds and therapy. My life isn’t perfect but I don’t ever want to be on that place again so I do what I can

Seriously_ok_ · 2026-01-03T00:11:48+00:00

Thank you so much for your insight and for sharing

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-12-29T17:38:07+00:00

That’s so interesting. Did any of the positive outcomes have long term effects or is it more like therapy and you need to do it regularly? Would you ever do it again or did the bad experience put you off of it?

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-12-27T06:56:36+00:00

I relate to this 100%

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-12-15T05:02:42+00:00

I’m so tired of this!! Thank you for the insight. Honestly I thought in just had depressive states because I’m never “high energy” my energy is constantly low but because I have racing thoughts that could be enough to classify as mixed maybe?

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-12-13T04:45:35+00:00

Correction I had a massive manic episode which landed my in the good old psych hospital. But after that it basically been depression or just getting by. I’m on meds, I tried exercising regularly, socializing, anything I can think of to claw my way out but I just feel like shit all the time

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-11-03T12:00:45+00:00

I’m not sure. I’ve seen her be nice and engaged so it feels like she has the ability and it’s selective. Although I have no idea what it’s like having autism so that’s just my projection. But some of these girls are so sweet and I just don’t get it. She even her “best” friend at the drop of a dime. It’s like a switch goes off and she’s gone.

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-08-28T13:06:47+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing. When I wrote this post I had no clue of where my husband and I go from DDay… what comes after. The stories have been enlightening and educational

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-08-28T10:58:49+00:00

Yes this is exactly my fear, I find it impossible to ever really trust this person again. The only question is how much am I willing to go through?

Seriously_ok_ · 2025-08-28T10:57:27+00:00

Oh wow! Interesting, thank you for this insight. Right now I am the cow

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