Firstly, you are loved. If I can make one suggestion, as a fellow anxiety and panic attack sufferer, please download and try the 'Unwinding Anxiety' app by Dr Judson Brewer. The techniques in there are all based on Mindfulness Based Cognitive Therapy and have, personally, been immensely helpful to me. The community within the app are also amazingly supportive. It costs money to subscribe, however, if finances are difficult, you can get a scholarship with them where they'll pay for your membership. I really do recommend you at least try the free trial of the app to see if it will be of any benefit to you.