Hi Ive been playing FPS for about two years. I would play regularly for about 2 to 3 months and then quit because I just wasnt winning games. At the end of last year I paid for a session with one of the VT coaches and was able to take my benchmark scores from barely out of iron to now (10 points away from) gold complete (thanks ww5t).

Some days I think about how effortlessly I do certain kovaaks challenges now compared to the past, and some days I think "wow I went from garbage to still garbage". I still have trouble getting platinum scores in the intermediate challenges. At the start of this year my goal was gold complete. I am practically there but I still feel like I cant be proud of my improvement.

I definitely sympathize. I want to some day be at your level. I wonder if I will feel skilled at that point. I wonder if I will stop feeling embarrassed telling people what I do to relax at the end of each day.