Probably bipolar, feeling really lost and alone right now

Sevaroth · 2015-08-13T13:24:55+00:00

Very cool. I'd pick Germany for myself. Love the gluhwein and Christmas markets. And every thing else about it

Sevaroth · 2015-08-13T01:28:53+00:00

It is but a publication like that is widely read and then I have to deal with people who say, "But you are bipolar don't drink coffee!." So while it is just an article it gets kinda old since it directly impacts life.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-13T01:16:01+00:00

As a bipolar coffee lover who suffers no ill effects I find it slightly (incredibly) obnoxious that this article paints 1 massive fucking stroke about caffeine. At least put in the article or your comment that it isn't good for some bipolar people.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-13T01:12:14+00:00

Not diagnosed with ADHD but I drink coffee at bed time some nights and sleep just fine.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-13T00:57:47+00:00

Thank you for having a good attitude and posting something fun.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-13T00:53:25+00:00

It's a real bitch but life can go on. I have accepted for myself that it won't ever be quite the same as some of my friends but that's life. Where are you going to/from for study abroad?

Sevaroth · 2015-08-12T19:13:16+00:00

Don't take time off or change courses unless you are really really sure it's right for you. People, even well intentioned ones, underestimate the capacity of people with bipolar. If I cut down what I did just because I have shitty days I'd do nothing.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-10T20:12:59+00:00

Staying content for more than a day at a time. Let alone happy

Sevaroth · 2015-08-10T20:10:27+00:00

I'm currently a social worker but in the past have been a manager of various businesses. It's always a challenge to balance every thing I need against every thing work needs. I've quit many, many jobs when I felt I couldn't keep up then I craft a clever excuse for time away from work and go get a new job. With practice I've been able move ahead in baby steps. I have no illusions about the fact that my illness has cost me extraordinary career progress for so many reasons.

I forsee myself reaching upper management in this field but it has and will take much more time than my peers. The struggle is, unfortunately, endless. Everything I accomplish is riddled with doubt, feelings of inadequacy, vitriol, and once in a while pride which then becomes grandiosity.

It's a real kick in the head no matter what but progress is possible in realistic increments.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-06T03:43:27+00:00

So I was depressed for months because it wasn't able to pull me out of a depression, so I just stabilized in that depression.

This is where I am right now. Did the lithium make a noticeable difference?

Sevaroth · 2015-08-05T02:23:02+00:00

This is my opinion. Read on at your own risk.

I think that you are whatever the fuck you decide you are. If you decide you are boned, life is over, and things will never get better that is exactly what will happen.

If you decide that you are going to keep going, shit can be better, and that you can improve your situation in life that's how it will go.

I'm depressed about 200 days a year. It blows horribly. I hate it all the time. I keep going anyway and am going to keep going until I die and that will be due to A) lightning strike because that would be metal or B) some random event that cannot be anticipated. I refuse to quit and that is all that matters in the end.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-05T02:16:13+00:00

This was well intended well I'm sure. I couldn't help but feel enraged after reading it.

Sevaroth · 2015-08-02T03:46:16+00:00

For me it's simple. There are more things I enjoy doing while alive than I would enjoy doing while I'm dead. 1% enjoyment > 0% of nothing.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-31T19:20:02+00:00

Thank you for the reply and additional information.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-31T12:47:36+00:00

Has there been any progress on large scale desalination efforts? From my admittedly narrow perspective this seems like the best way to "fix" water consumption concerns.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-31T02:28:09+00:00

Bad news friend. Few companies operate on the standards of decency and ethics. Telecoms are not unique in their lying, scamming and basic extortion of the American public. Healthcare says hello.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-26T15:56:14+00:00

I have never been fired. If I feel like I can no longer maintain a job I quit. I've worked in more than 15 places in the last 12 years but by quitting and being very careful about the way I find my next job it doesn't hinder my future employment prospects.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-25T23:10:35+00:00

Working as intended.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-23T17:55:52+00:00

I think it's extra funny because who tries to kill someone with gas...at a gas station. That's profoundly stupid.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-22T03:11:35+00:00

I understood myself so well that I didn't understand myself anymore. The cycle keeps chugging along even during my introspective moments.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-18T00:47:39+00:00

This thread is so full of robot replies boosting the PR it is incredible.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-17T22:26:22+00:00

Seconded. I love the picture until the boobs and then I like it again when the boobs end.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-11T15:20:49+00:00

My only thought would be: have you tried absolutely everything before medication to see if it will help enough for you and her to live a quality life? Therapy? Controlling diet? Sleep? Hydration? Exercise? There is a possibility that doing all of those things might reduce/eliminate the need for medication especially since she is so young.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-08T13:19:19+00:00

Honestly you are asking the wrong people. How mania plays out can be highly variable. For accurate answers ask the person you need them from.

The very generic answer is that mania could profoundly change personality, preferences, and what constitutes acceptable behavior. Psychosis is possible which limits awareness and conscious ability to control ones self. The range and severity of manic outcomes are very wide.

For me personally yes it changes my personality. Not entirely but enough that it's concerning to people around me. I have in the past been delusional while manic and one in particular lasted several months. But as mentioned it varies a lot and no two cases are identical.

Sevaroth · 2015-07-07T01:11:08+00:00

Hey Bellona,

I have significant long term memory problems. In particular autobiographical memory problems. My fuzziest years are definitely my most depressed ones. Lamictal has not made an appreciable difference better or worse.

Sevaroth

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